Dunno When Will Stop..

Da above 12am da...so..da mcuk hari bru.. Ingt anne nk update post yg b4..tp memandangkn da mcuk hr bru..kne la post bru... Continue dr post yg b4.. Anne lyn feeling...ttbe.............my love tex..11.45pm kot.. At 12.00-12.20am die call lak.. Aish~bad timing!! Cz ht nga pedih..anne nk pretend to b ok pn xpat.. Mmg xley jd pelakon la..>_< Kdg2 je jd..cam cmlm..kelmarin.. Die xpat detect..cbb lakonan mnjadi..(mnjadi la agknye..nta la..).. Tp...mlmni..im BUSTED...=_= S.O.R.R.Y to my VVIP.. I noe..xde ayat lain yg ley anne ckp ag..clain.. Maafkn anne abg.. Not that anne xnk share..tp..juz xnk jd tukang sesakkan fkiran abg ngn mnde yg xpatut abg fkir.. Pe yg pntg utk abg fokus ckrg..ur work....n anne xkn kcau abg kjar impian abg.. Go for it.. Mm.. In case ttbe abg ter-free n bce mnde merapu ni sume..jgn abg attack anne lak cbb xgtau abg..n jgn abg nk kusut cme.. Cz anne nga lam mood 'if-b4-ngn-abg-anne-ley- je-survive-alone-so-do-now'.. Jd...abg pliz jgn rcau.. Anne xnk peningkn pale abg lak ngn hal yg xseberape ni lau nk bandingkn ngn masalah org yg paling malang lam dunie.. Cian kt abg je...u'r so bz ngn work..alek uma lau ley tido trus.. Kt ctu nmpk abg letih..jd anne xnk la jd org yg turut wat abg btambah letih.. Mce yg abg ade pn cgt trhad ckrg.. N i dun think my stories wil fit in urs.. Jd xpe la.. Like wut i said.. Ur work is more important now..n about me lak..anne lum ag jd org plg malang kt universe ni..jd xya rcau.. I'm perfectly ok! peace..^_~v (lau abg da bce..sure abg tau npe anne angun kul 12.30pm td..truk kn? heee~)..Btw...abg ckp lau x abg ingt nk bwk anne kuar esk kn..(i mean arini la..itz oredy sunday..)..tp..abg gak ckp ptg nnt abg kne g senai..nk btolak ke Melaka.. U'll b away for a week..again.. Well...i do feel a bit excited bile ckp nk kuar..tp.....t tkut xckup mce t.. Plus..anne nga xde fulus..so..cowy..i hev to say no..n make excuses.. Anne ckp t abg tkejar2 mce lak kan.. Mm..mmg btul la kn...t abg kne rushing2.. So..xpe la..mgkin bkn kalini.. Xtau la cume prcaan anne or wut..to me..u sound frustrated bile anne ckp xya kuar..btul ke im disappointing u? Sowy if i do..didnt mean to.. Tp keadaan yg watkn anne ckp xya.. Itz not dat i didnt miss u..i do..i miss u..myb way lot more than how u think of.. Tp..mmg anne nga xde fulus.. Agpn...tgn anne melecur.. Anne mls nk kuar..cz lau kuar..kne kai lngan pnjg...cket tau.. So...i need to recover.. Hope abg fhm.. (of cz anne xcmpt nk ckp ngn abg tntg tgn mlecur..xpe la..ckit je..xcyez pn..).. Aftr we hung up..mcg 2x je..then cnyap je...no rply pn..(even katenye nk mcg..)..nmpk cgt abg letih.. So..cweetdreamz..

1.20am oredy...n i dun feel like sleeping.. (ape pnye pnyakit la ckrg ni..=_=hm..).. Duno when wil stop..all these tears..heartache..insomia... Nmpknye..my gossipmate akn jd mgce la psni.. (besh lak gelaran..hehe..).. Yup..mmg ncb kite cme..tp...pe ley wat kn..cik2 abg kite pn spesen gak.. Xpe2..lau time cngle mingel dlu kite ok je..jd juz anggp yg ckrg ni kite cmtu gak.. Gurlz power is all we need.. ^_^Lebbiiuuu!
2am above... Finally alone.. Cudnt sleep.. Kawal emosi.. Pale rce srabut.. N laz2 tgk jam da kul 3.15am.. Gosh.. Kul 4am lak sahur.. Aftr sahur tried to sleep..tp.........kul 6.30 am bru ade rce nk tido.. N angun kul 10am... Itz dark..raining.. Ade guruh ag..tp xkuat pn.. Mmg besh la selubung lam comforter.. Mate da xley nk tido da..fmly lak x angun2.. Ok~~cgt bushan.. Well..si die ade mcg kul 10.15am.. Tp pstu die ttido ag..=_= Hm..
12pm bru la riuh ckit uma..cz masing2 da angun... Ujung minggu..sumenye bermalasan.. Hm..cmlm mak dpt invitation g surau (utk ibu2 tunggal..)..jd ibu bwk la.. Balik tu mak ckp la ape sumbangan yg mak dpt.. N speaking of money...rezeki thn ni mak kate ckit je.. Dpt bpe puluh je..laz year dpt rm220.. Bile da gtu,abah lak cbuk ''Ehhh....asal ckit je thn ni? Sush la cmni..''  Anne xtau nk gelak ke..nk marah ke..yg psti..lau gelak,mmg gelak sinis..n sah2 la...AKU HANGEN DGR CMTU OK!! Ape xnye..mmg la abh sush..cbb t xley nk pow duit mak byk2 kan~ Pffft~ Sh*t.. 
Mm..mne x ht ni pedih je..lme2 mgkin ley mati cbb depression anne ni.. ='(  Si die mgkin da ke Senai by now.. Safe journey.. Moge cmat pergi n blk..
Mr.FS..thanx la mnceriekn hari2 anne ye..maceh cgt2... Everytime rce nk mngalir je air mate ni,msti Mr.FS muncul..even xbyk mmbntu..cz Mr.FS xtau pe yg anne lalui ckrg..atleast u manage to stop these tears ngn cite merapu..=')  Again..thanx..
Ptg nnt ibu kate mak ngah ajk buke kt luar... so..xmasak la arini.. 4pm lbh gtu..anne mcg la my love cz die cnyap ttbe aftr die mcg ckp kt highway.. S i expected..die tido.. Then anne suro la die cmbung tido.. jwpnnye... ''xnk..abg nk tman kamu arini..''.. Haha..cam nk nangis bce mcg tu...T_T  I wish~ Tgk la jap ag msti abg lesap..so...anne da xksh da lau dpt mcg cmtu.. U noe..da la nga xde mood.. Then..abg ckp ag..''im here 4 u..''.. Nta npe ttbe tergelak kcik bce mcg yg 1 ni.. My impression pd mcg ni..cme cam mcg yg 1st td tu.. Bg anne... It means..''lau abg ade,ade la..lau xde..nk wat cane..duty calls..so im not hoping..''.. Hm...now..anne nk kuar... Hope clear la ckit pale otak ni..
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Nite.... Td anne ckp nk kuar kn..g buke kt luar ngn mak ngah.. Tp...rite b4 kuar uma tu..anne nmpk abah signal kt ibu..(signal tgn utk ckp duit xde..nk kai duit cpe nnt?).. Haish..ckup2 la duk korek duit ibu aku.. Mmg la AKU HANGEN SATU BADAN!! So..makanan utk buke..anne pilih kueh teow cbb lau mnde yg mee2 ni sume lbh murah dr nasi.. Even beberape sen pn,harapan anne dpt kurangkn bil.. Bile stress,mule la pale ni rce cket n bengal.. ni la yg anne xcke..
Anne xcam adk..lau adik,die mara or memberontak,die jd cgt aggresive.. Anne lak sebaliknye..bile mood xpuas ht dtg..lam ht je kuat mnjerit..tp luaran,jd cgt x bmaye..weak..restless..rce mcm org yg dehydrated..cmtu la.. Hmm... My cik abg..aftr buke da trus cnyap.. See.....kan anne da ckp awl2 td... Mcg die yg 1st n 2nd tu cam kate2 utk mnyedapkn ht even da tau cbnrnye cmne..(clalu ditinggalkn)..tu yg tgelak ckit td..nk ngs pn ade bile bce mcg tu.. Hehe.. Mm..arini anne brokedown sumenye kt abg haris..anne nk abg haris fhm mclh anne bile mce anne xpat nk laksanekn tanggungjwb anne on time..anne bkn jns yg mgkir jnji...tp lau tjadi,mknenye bukn ats kehendak anne.. Cowy cbb anne susahkn abg n lmbt settle ngn abg...now abg haris da fhm.. Another unexpected thing happened.. td mce lyn FB..anne tolong la handle juniors yg curious nk tau tntg hostel kt page mjlis kolej kediaman.. Ckali.. Mr.FS join s admin utk page tu.. Then..mgkin die ade hal..die stop la kjap.. X lme pstu..anne dpt SMS.. Mr.FS kate thanx cz lyn dak2 tu..he really appreciate it.. Hmm..^_~glad to help..tu gunenye seniors kn..guide juniors.. Pstu.....Mr.FS ley ckp..''really apprecite it..nnt kte makan cme2..fendy blnje ye..hehe..jgn gtau org len tau..pokai fendy nnt..haha..''..Ok! This is my first laugh utk arini yg btul2 ikhlas dr ht yg cam kne geletek... hahaha..suci tul niat..ke ade cicak di sebalik frame? haha.. Wutever la Mr.FS..lau ade mcenye insyaAllah.. ^_^