Cmat Hari Raye!! 2011.. Happy Bday to My Lil Sis!

Pejam celik..pejam celik.. da 1 Syawal!!!! Cmlm xcmpt nk update.. bz cgt2.. dr celik mate..cmpi tutup mate..xpat nk update blog..
Arini kul 5.30am ag da mak kerah suro angun.. Tolong mak masak lodeh..ayam sambal..kari ayam.. Cmlm da berhempas pulas masak serunding kelape...rendang daging n sambal kacang.. Nantok2nye.. cmpi naik bengal pale.. Settle sume kul 7.30am.. 7.45am bru dpt mndi..
Cmat hari raye utk sume yg kenali anne.. Maaf zahir batin.. Cowy lau ade tclh or tclap laku.. Halalkn ape yg tlebih or tkurang.. Arini...1family kai kaler pink..itz rasberry pink.. Tp xbpe nk rasberry s i wanted.. tp pe ley wat..jumpe kain yg tu je.. N today....asalnye anne nk wat spt biace..sepit je rambut ni.. Tp ttbe mcm rce nk kai tudung lak.. Kne lak bju anne matching ngn shawl pink yg bru beli tu.. N tup-tup! I'm a new me.. Mule arini..anne akn start kai tudung..(asalnye nk kai 1st day dftr 2nd year 11sept nnt.. tp..nmpknye awal seru nye...^_^ doakan la ye..)..
So...1st place rye.. of coz...uma nenek n atok like oweyz.. Cmpi uma nenek lam kul 11lbh.. Kt ctu..nenek cite la tntg 3pupu tiri anne yg nme hazwan tu..(UMT gak ni..of coz la kwn.. dr time mtrx ag kwn..cz mce cuti rye mtrx tu..rye uma nenek,jmpe hazwan..turns out mamat ni bestfren ngn my ex..n 2weeks later dpt mcg dr hazwan..die kate die mntk num anne dr my ex.. So..xpe la..he's my 2nd cousin though..).. Nenek kate 2-3hari lepas hazwan ade dtg..cje bual2 ngn atok n nenek..cmbil tgk bju raye da ciap ke blum.. Pstu nenek ckp..die kate ngn hazwan ''Nape wan nk sgt kawan ngn anne tu???..anne tu biase2 je.. xlawa mne pn..xcntk.. Hazwan lak molek orgnye..''  (Anne yg mndgr agk sentap la..ape motif nenek?? Bkawan pn perlu cmtu ke?) Then nenek ckp hazwan jwb '' Eh tok ani ni.. wan kawan ngn anne bukan cbb paras rupe..tp cbb die baik.. Lau kate paras rupe pn..ley tahan gak anne tu..tp wan juz nk berkawan je..bukannye cmpi nk kahwin pn..''  (Da anne sentap..bile dgr ayt hazwan..cool la jugak ckit.. Hazwan mmg baik..xdinafikan..).. Pstu nenek cite la dak hazwan ni cmni..hazwan ni cmtu.. (Err~~~~ape2 la nek.. Anne clalu je jmpe die kt UMT..so i noe who he is..).. Aftr raye uma nenek..g uma tok kampung melayu tu..tok tu bru kuar hospital cmlm..tu pn aftr mntk plepasan dr doc cbb nk raye.. She looks better..tp stil xkuat gak.. Then alek uma..(b4 dat g beli kek utk bday adik).. Cmpi uma kul 2lbh asenye..
Arini special ckit.. bkn stakat raye.. but also bday adk..her 11th bday... Jd beli kek.. mak ngah..ayah uteh..pak andak,cik N(yg mmg da tido kt uma dr cmlm..).. sume dtg utk lil celebration.. Kul 5pm kuar g uma tok uteh(anne pggil tok gigi mas..cz gigi die sebatang ade sarung emas..).. Then planning nk g uma tok long n tok ngah..tp xjadi.. So..alek uma.. Kt uma lepak2..cik anan lak dtg..n also mak long..10.30pm deorg sume alek.. Kul 11.15pm bru anne ley on9.. Esk lak kul 10.30am kumpul kat tol utk btolak ke Segamat..uma tok busu.. My fav place..^_~ Kampung..besh..hehe.. Cant wait for tomorrow!

M-Ber is Sick!

Hari ke-28 poce... Nervous rcenye.. Hmm...arini bru je planning nk golek2 cmpi kul 11am.. Tp...kul 10am my twinz dtg amik kek lapis.. Hehe..aftr that cmbung golek2..cz ibu,abah,mak n adik x angun ag.. 11.45am..ibu ckp ciap cpt! Nk bwk M-Ber g vet! So..ciap2 la.. Kuar nk g vet yg tdekat..ade 4 vet..tp 3 tutup..1 tu pulak..doc nk break..kul 3pm t bru cmbung cmule.. Haaa...mmg xnk la.. Cz tgk M tu..keadaan die merisaukn.. Die da xmkn 2hari.. X angun pn.. Tido je..pstu nk muntah byk kali.. Tu yg nk jugak cari vet on d dot.. Lazz2 g tmpt yg jauh ckit.. Dlu pnh bwk M g ctu.. Ncb die bukak.. Aftr bg injections antibiotic n vitamin..n also pil tahan muntah..doc ckp..M dmm...lam mulut die ade ulcer..tggu 2-3hari..lau she gets better bru bg ubat cacing.. But if cmggu M x ok ag..bwk g vet cmule.. Settle sume tu... There u go..RM123 terbang utk M pnye treatment.. Xpe la..ncb la kucing kcygn..
Alek uma da kul 1.20pm.. Kul 3pm kuar g Kipmart.. Beli barang dapur utk raye.. Pstu alek uma.. Bersihkn ayam... Jap je da kul 6.30pm.. Standby brg buke lak.. Aftr buke n solat mgrb.. potong daging lak.. Kul 8lbh bru settle.. Pstu tman adik men fireworks lak.. Adik ade geng nk main...tu yg juz monitor je.. Sabrina (adik cdare anne) tido cni.. Mm..btmbah ag cowg nk mnjage ni.. Adik kaki 2 ade 2org... adik kaki 4 lak ade 3ekor.. Layan la~
M-Ber lak.. bile malam ni..kembali lemah.. Td aftr alek dr vet,die cam cergas ckit..g mam (suku mknn je..) n minum air.. Pstu die tido..cmpi la ckrg.. Hope she gets better.. N sad news...nta nape ttbe ibu n abah ckp nk pulang Winter kt nenek..=( Alasannye.. xde org nk jage.. Agpn Winter kcik..kne lbh phatian..lau anne kt uma xpe gak.. Ni lau anne da alek UMT..cpe nk jge.. Harap adik??potong jari la lau die RAJIN nk jage Winter.. Mm...='( nk melarang pn xley la.. Cbb mmg anne pn da nk alek UMT..mmg xpat nk ptahankn Winter..=/ Pape pn..she wil always b my Winter..

Shopping Lagi....

Poce ke-27... Arini anne cngaje golek2 cmpi kul 11.30am bru kuar bilik.. mne x beshnye.. cuace cjuk je.. Mmg sronok tarik climut..^_~
Kul 12lbh kuar uma... G air bemban.. Mak n ibu nk beli ikan utk isi aquarium tu.. Anne x amik dulik pn deorg amik ape.. Cz ikan yg anne nk xde... Anne cke ghostfish..elephant nose fish.. Tp xde lak..yg ade da besar2..size 60cm..rm35... Mmg xla.. Nk yg kcik2 tu..bru rm6.. Dicbbkn xde..anne ronde2 tgk ikan2 yg lain.. N cari tmpt Pyrate yg lbh luas.. Jmpe gak akhirnye..=) Aftr that g Angsana.. Punye la pnuh.. Parking pn clagi ade kosong,lagi tu disumbat.. Mmg tbaik la.. hehe.. Shopping cari sliper adk...my sneakers.. Then ibu tgk tudung n pin tudung.. Lau tgk..mmg rambang mate..shawl2 lak cantik2.. tp mahal btul kt cni.. Saat ni bru la nk rindu Mydin kt KT tu.. hikhik... Org kt lam Angsana tu mmg pnuh.. Time bjln rce cam main bumper car lak.. Berlanggar sane ni.. Mate kotak agknye.. Tau la size lbh bsr n lbh tggi dr anne yg agk rendang ni.. Tp kot ye pn... Xde la rendang cgt..tu pn xnmpk ke? Hmm..jmpe kuih fav anne.. Frozen Kenari... Tp ibu xnk beli lak..=( Anne pnye la ngidam nk kuih tu.. Nmpknye bukn rezeki...=/ Aftr that g bazar kt BBU.. Then g bli ayam goreng kt Restoren Mana Lagi kt Perling... Pstu bru alek uma.. Ciap2 n mndi sume..da kul 7.10pm.. Kelam kabut ase..
My guardian lak.. Pagi bute je die mcg..tp pstu die lak yg tido..=_= Xpe la.. Mr.FS..mcm biace la..msti ade..=) N my dear one too... <3 Pape pn..anne x bcadang angun awl esk..hikhik..^_~

14 More Days~

Hari ke-26 poce... 14 more days left for me to be at home...>_< Ttbe rce cuti ni cgt pndek.. 4bulan cuti yg pd mulenye mcm lame gile...but now... rce cam xckup lak cuti..hehe..

Angun cahur kul 4am.. 1st thing dat made me smile..bile tringt yg guardian ckp he’s expecting my mcg...n checking his phne tiap kali cahur.. But few seconds later..naik rcau lak.. Cz no rply at or even answer utk soalan yg cmlm... Hmm... Aftr cahur tido cmule..

Kul 7.30am start wat kek lapis rempah.. Haih~pnye la bcinte nk angun pagi ni.. Ape x nye.. cuace nga cjuk..ujan... Mmg cdap tarik climut..tp mak tu... G bancuh adunan... Nk xnk anne kne angun.. Yg cngal nye... Bile da ciap bancuh,mak g tido...tggl anne cowg yg kne melapis kek.. Pergh~berasap je pale ni..=_= Kul 2.30pm gtu kuar... Cnggah uma nenek jap (xtau wtpe..cz anne tggu lam kete..).. Then abh g Gdex.. Then kul 5pm gtu bru cmpi HSI..lawat atok.. Sayu gile hati.. Bile atok ckp die lapar..tp org xnk bg die makan.. Pstu sebak2 org tue tu..nangis coz lapar nk makan.. Cpe yg cnggup tgk cmtu.. Hampir ngs anne dibuatnye.. Bukn xnk bg die mkn..tp doc yg xbg.. Hope esk die da ley mam.. Xcnggup tgk die ngs cz nk mkn.. Atok ciap ckp..’’tok rase nk curi je makanan org cblh..tok lapar nak..’’ pstu die ngs.. Ah sudah~ naik berair mate anne.. Haish~ Cmge tok cpt cmbuh...=’(

Later...g JJTC...buke.. Then g shopping bju,kasut,jeans... Kasut n sandal yg anne nk xde pulak..=_= yg mne anne kenan,yg tu la xde size.. sumenye tlalu bsr bg anne.. Hm..xpe la...try usha tmpt lain nnt.. Pstu...anne pnye la cket ht ngn abah.. Time anne ckp psl duit anne,die ley wat main.. Cng ckp..kurg ajar la.. Tp cam xkne lak bile ank tiri nk ckp gtu kt bpk tiri.. Ape yg pntg,anne rce cam nk humban je abh tu kuar uma... Namenye suami..ketue kluarga..tp...hapah x mmbantu.. Mnyusahkn bini lagi adela.. Bukn suami tanggung isteri..tp isteri tanggung suami.. Btul bwk malang abah ni!

Abs shopping kul 10.30pm.. Then otw alek,ley lak abah cnggah kdai mamak roti canai.. Gosh~xkenyang agknye die tu.. Buke td mkn byk btul.... Hm..org da pnat..die bkn ksh mane.. Laz2 cmpi uma kul 11.30pm.. Xcmpt nk solat sume mak lak suro wat ni..suro wat tu.. Berasap2 la pale ni.. Hangen je hati... Tp pe ley wat... PASRAH!

Hppy?? Sad?? In between?? Hurm~

25th day of fasting... Ag 5hari je nk raye! N arini bday adik cdare.. I called her Didi.. N also.....my guardian’s bday..

Nta npe..mcm kne bg ubat tido... Kul 12.40am anne da lenyap di alam mimpi.. Mmg xcdar mnde da.. Angun cahur kul 3.50am..dgr bunyi bising2 ibu n mak riuh rendah..nta ape deorg wat.. Ckali tgk phne..ade missedcalls n mcgs dr my dear.. Then..anne anta mcg cahur kt si die..n xlupe gak utk my guardian.. Aftr cahur anne tido la.. Time si die mcg,anne cdar..tp time guardian mcg,mmg anne da tido mati ag ckali.. Angun Subuh pn cam org mamai.. Pas solat tido...

Angun kul 10.45am..besh gile tido! Then tgh/h anne on9 jap.. Ckali...tkejut bile tgk FB..cbb..kt ctu die tulis name2 org yg cmbut bday arini.. Antarenye my guardian!! Adeyh~~~cane anne ley tlupe ni...=_= Dan2 anne anta mcg n then post kt FB... Cowy ye awk...sy xcngaje...T_T

Arini buke kt Tesco.. (xtau pn actually nk g tesco or jusco).. Katenye nk nk kuar cari brg raye..n brg dapur.. Ckali otw,mak dpt call.. Mak mertua die jtuh..n now kt hospital.. Yg wat btambah suspen,bile atok muntah n buang air,msti ade drh pekat yg kuar... Then katenye doktor nk tebuk tekak atok so that ley bg atok makan.. Ya Allah..cmpi cmtu ckali.. Hope atok ok..=’( Anne cyg atok ni cam anne cyg arwah tok anne dlu.. Lam kete tu anne da pelik cz abah drive kt jln yg asing bg anne.. Anne tnye la nk g ane.. Then ibu n mak serentak ckp nk g hspital..so..ok la.. Anne pn seperti biace..bile lam kete bukn fokus cgt jln kt luar..lbh kpd khayal..then men mcg.. Ckali bile anne tcdar,tau2 abah nk belok ke Tesco.. o.O anne pelik la..kate nk g hspital..tp cmpi kt tesco lak.. Bile anne tnye ibu..ibu diam.. Bile tnye mak..mak kate.. Mak ni cpe..hnye mmpu ckp..duk mnumpang lagi.. Org da xcke..mmg xnk la die bwk.. Zasss! Sentap! Trus lam ht anne ckp ‘’Abh tu mmg..lau esk2 die cket..nazak ke..xde org nk dtg jenguk bru padan muke!huh!!! Pakal je aku xde kete..lau x..xya la nk ikut abh cgt..=_=hish! Kurg pahale poce..’’ Haish~nta ape nk jd ngn abah ni..

Kt tesco jln2 cari bju mne yg bkenan...then shopping brg dapur.. Pstu anne da jmpe brg yg plg sesuai utk dijadikan hadiah utk si die.. Cume 1 je la..hope si die cke.. Cz anne da abs puas perah otak fkir nk beli ape n mcm mne brgnye..  Maklum la..xbiace nk beli brg utk lelaki..hehe.. Time jln2 kt tesco tu jugak ttbe dpt mcg dr my guardian! Ttbe anne rce cgt hppy..^_~ He’s back... die ckp thanx cz wish...then die ingt anne nk wish pagi td..upenye x pn.. Ah sudah~kne la anne bohong sunat utk jge ht die.. Cowy awk.. Yg pntg awk hppy dpt wish tu..^_^ Pstu anne terus terang ckp yg anne rndu die..n tnye mnde die mnyepi.. Die lak jwb..cowy..die xcngaje mnyepi..jadual die yg bterabur n sumtimes die xde mce.. N die gak ckp mne ley anne rindu2 die..kang bf anne marah.. tp yg psti..die expect mcg dr anne tiap hari.. N tiap cahur,msti die cari phne dlu utk tgk mcg anne ade sent ke x..^_~hikhik.. Die gak ckp yg anne jgn lupe..kne jge kchtn anne btul2..(die cgt memahami..lau anne wat kje lbh je,msti mule kurg chat..he knows dat pretty well..).. Then die kate.. ‘’if awk ade probs..sy ade je kt cni..ok princess..?’’ Mm..=) Bahagienye anne dgr... Tgh2 bahagie..ckali......guardian ckp die ade minat kt cowg gurl yg da 4thn die knal..tp gurl ni xthn 1 mnde... (anne da mule takut..cz anne ley agk ape yg die akn ckp..)..guardian ckp gurl tu xthn yg die jd guardian anne..n ade la jugak gurl tu majok ngn guardian.. (Gosh!!!!ape yg anne takutkn clame ni da jd betul2.. =’( npe cmni..?).. Sentap di ctu.. Mmg cdey la kan.. Npe la gurl tu xnk fhm hubungan guardian-princess kiteorg ni cam my dear one fhm.. Even my guardian da explain byk kali..but d gurl xnk trime.. Then guardian ckp..guardian pause contact ngn gurl tu.. Cmlm bru deorg contact cmule n da ok da... tp..anne rce gurl tu msti xley trime jugak.. S i expected..guardian ckp gurl tu lum ley trime sepenuhnye.. T_T cmge ht gurl tu tbukak utk trime.. Anne bukn nk jd madu die pn.. Anne juz nk bersahabat baik ngn my guardian yg da 1thn lbh anne knal..yg mnjage anne clame ni.. Even da cmni pn..guardian mch amik berat tntg kchatn anne.. Terharu ngn sikap prihatin die.. Bru kjap rce bahagie ngn kehadiran die cmule..  Now??is he going to leave me??=/ Hope not.. Pliz dun go my guardian...=( I need u to stay...

Haih la Mimpi..

Hari ke-24 poce.. Hm..berdebar rce bile menghitung hari..=S cuak pn ade..hppy pn ade..cdeynye pn ade..cam rojak da feeling ni.. Agk2 rojak petis ke..rojak asma ke..rojak buah?? Nta la..meraban la pulak..=_=

Mm..anne ttido awl..nta cane nta nga mcg2 ley tido.. Hee~cowy pd yg berkenaan.. Angun cahur 4.50am.. Pgi ni xde rce nk mam pape pn..mcm xley nk telan pape.. Stakat minum air susu 1cawan n air masak half cawan..da ckup knyang ase.. Aftr cahur tu..mcg ngn my dear till Subuh.. Aftr dat tido.. Angun kul 7.40am! Xcdar alarm kul 7.30am.. Tu la...syok cgt mmpi..nta cmne ley mmpi senior Persadatari.. Geng Persadatari yg seangkatan..n xlupe gak my VVIP ngn geng2 crew die.. X dulik la mmpi yg lain2 tu.. Anne xpuas ht lak...tiap kali mmpi,my VVIP msti tselit jugak..o.O Pelik tul.. D nite b4 ag besh.. Mmpi anne ngn my love buke poce cme2...together with my parenz n his parenz joining us.. Juz dat anne x bpeluang nk tgk muke parenz die cz da tjage dr tido.. Hehe...npe la die asyik tselit.. Rcenye nta da bpe kali mmpi utk mggu ni.. Sume mmpi msti ade die.. Tp hal mmpi ni xla sepelik bile anne nmpk nme sum1 yg rajin menge-poke anne kt FB...ape lg yg mamat ni nk? Nk kne hempuk ngn anne ke? Ni da mcuk hari ke-3 ni men poke2.. Kemunculan die lak tibe2 lak tu..

Anne tlalu byk bmimpi bile start pertengahan poce.. Divided by two... Lau mmpi b4 angun cahur,msti no conversations.. Juz pergerakkan je..cam mmpi Jejaka Misteri.. Tp lau mmpi aftr buke..bru la ade dialog pcakapan.. N most of my dreamz..b4 cahur.. Ade mkne ke? Nta la...

Arini wat kek cmpi kul 3.50pm!!! Lewat abs! Mmg da xlrat cgt da ase.. Kul 5.45pm lak kuar utk buke kt hotel Tropical Inn ngn pak andak n ayah uteh sume.. Mmg tbaik la! Rezeki~ Dr alek cuti tu anne ngidam nk mam steamboat n ketam.. Ckali...sume tu ade kt hotel tu.. Mmg seronok..^_^ Hikhik.. Alek uma da kul 9lbh.. Nmpk tilam..rcenye cam org yg kt tgh padang pasir jumpe air yg cjuk n mnyamankn.. Huhu...paradise!

Hari Yang Meletihkan...

23rd day of fasting.. 7hari lgi nk raye n 17hari lgi duduk kt JB.. Aftr dat..gudbye JB n aloha UMT.. =') cdey tp hppy..
I dreamt of my love laz nite.. Nta npe 2-3menjak ni asyik mmpi die.. N xde pbualan pn.. Cam lam mmpi ngn Jejaka Misteri.. Hmm....ade mkcd tsirat n tsurat ke? Nta la...
Arini..tlewat ckit utk cahur..cz anne tlewat angun.. Clalu 5.15am da settle da...ni 5.20am mch kt luar bilik.. Aftr cahur tido.. N my dear kejut solat rite aftr azan Subuh.. Then tido cmule..angun 7.25am.. Ready utk wat kek lapis asam.. Mak betul buli anne..die bancuh adunan tu cmpi 3.. Sudahnye anne yg kne handle 3 kek tu cowg2 cz mak xnmpk nk melapis n letak asam kt kek tu..=_= Cgt pnat ok..rce dehydrated btul cz ngadap oven je arini.. Nga bakar 3 kek tu..ttbe mak suro amik telur ag..die nk bancuh..terus anne bantah.. Ckup la..3kek ni pn anne da x menang tgn..ni kan pulak 4 kek..lau mak handle xpe gak.. Ni anne jugak yg kne.. Demi nk cmatkn dri,anne xbg mak bancuh adunan ke-4... Phewww~~~cmat mak xbancuh..lau x...ade kul 5pm bru abs.. Td tu pn settle bakar 3 kek kul 3.30pm.. Kul 5lbh lak ibu ajk buke luar.. Secret Recipe.. Hmm...nantok..pnat n trce kering.. Esk wt kek ag.. T_T
Ncb baik ade Winter..tgk keletah baby kaki 4 yg sekor ni..btul2 wat ht ni cjuk.. She's way to adorable in her own style.. Cmpikn ibu n abah pn naik pelik.. Da la care tido tu asal boleh.. Hehe..comel!
Cpnjg wat kek tu jugak..my dear ade tman mcg..n also Mr.FS.. Haih...caring lebih lak Mr.FS ni arini..hehe... Pape je la...=) Nite....FB..Tagged.com... Yg mmg wjb check..n msti ade new notifications n fren request..

22-8-11 (22nd Aug 2011)

22 hari da poce.. Hm..8hari je lagi nk raye..anne lak x beli ag bju raye.. Nta cmpt nta x..
Arini..dr kul 1am gtu... Si die call.. Pcah rekod men supersavers cmpi 2jam.. Tp besh..^_~ Kul 3am stop...tp... Winter lak ley angun n ajk men.. Cmpi 3.30am kot melayan baby kaki 4 ni..=_= Nantok~ Laz2 die tido cmbil pluk tgn anne..o.O cke hati je.. Tp xpe la..kecomelan die watkn rce cngal bdn cz xley nk gerak cbb die baring kt anne berkurangan ckit..
5am cahur...aftr cahur ley nap jap b4 Subuh.. N ncb baik si die mcg ckp da azan..lau x...lajak ag la.. Pstu cmbung tido.. Bru je cadang nk angun lmbt arini..nk rht puas2 cz esk da start wat kek lapis.. Tp......kul 8am tido da tganggu.. Mak pggil suro tolong wat kuih tart.. Gosh~mak ni...yg seksenye anne.. Dicbbkn ibu ade.. Jd......ngn nakalnye anne pn matikn dri lam bilik..cblh tgn peluk bntal mucuk puas2...ag cblh.....xley gerak cz Winter tido... Lyn mate yg mmg mcm kne gam ni..laz2 kul 9am anne angun la jugak... Ciap2 sume kul 9.30am start tolong.. Ibu da amik part wat tart..jd kje anne lak wat kek pisang.. Kul 1pm hev to stop... Cz kul 2pm ibu kate ikut abah g kje kt Desaru..Bandar Penawar... So...sume g la.. Cket tulang blkg ni btambah lenguh bile dduk je lam kete... Sabor je la... Ncb ade novel..tp malangnye anne mabuk bile bce lam kete... Sudahnye anne tido la.. Dpt bpe minit nta.. Cdar2 stop nta kt mne utk solat.. Then 10mins later my love mcg.. Cmpi la mlm.. Arini hmpir tlewat buke poce.. Cmpi Tesco Sri Alam kul 7pm.. Ibu trus g beli air dlu.. Buke ngn air..then bru order mkn.. Aftr buke bru alek uma.. Alek je uma..da la cket bdn.. Pstu mak lak dan2 suro pecahkn telur..timbang tepung..(cje je nk cari pasal agknye).. Mcm la mak xtau yg anne ni lau alek dr mne2 trus je mnonong g mndi n tukar bju dlu.. WAJIB! Cz anne rce x selese lau x tukar bju tu.. Lg pulak ngn suar jeans..suro anne gerak2 kt dapur.. Haih~mmg xla... Really dun like it.. So...anne g la mndi dlu..da ciap sume bru tolong mak.. Sementare tggu mak kire2 jumlah nk kne timbang..anne bg la kucing mkn.. Ckali~mak punye la bebel ckp ''org suro tolong timbang tepung gule ni..die g wat kje lain..blah3..''  =_= dr anne melanguk tggu mak wat kire2 baik g bg kucing mkn..xcmpi 1min je pn.. Yg mak terus nk wat perangai majok la konon.. Puas tnye nk timbang bpe byk..die ley wat bodo.. Sudahnye 15min tggu jwpn dr mulut die..lgsg x dulik.. Lau ikut hati..nk je anne tgglkn die n g bg Winter susu lak..tp bile fkir mak xnmpk nk bce timbang..laz2 anne g bongkar buku resipi n trus je timbang.. Baru mak nk kuar cuare tnye bpe byk anne pandai2 letak... Nk je anne mogok xnk ckp..tp kang ag mngamuk org tue tu.. Eventually anne yg naik bise pale cz cube tahan rce tension tu..hmm...
Nta angin ape ibu n abah mlmni.. da kul 11.15pm..ttbe ajk g snacking mam roti canai..o.O Tp anne x g la..xlarat.. Pning pale n cket bdn.. So.. I need rest...
Arini...Mr.FS ckp anne kne bwk alek kuih ckit utk die..die nk rce lau ade.. Anne ckp insyaAllah..lau ade,anne bg... Ttbe die kate.. ''Baiknye anne..ni yg fndy suke ni..hee..'' Erk! o.O Apekah?? Anne nk lari dr hal tu..anne ckp la..''fndy tu..suro anne..ape kate fndy pn bwk ckit..ley anne ase..'' Ttbe die ckp ''ala..xde la anne..uma xwat.. fndy xckup baik cam anne..msti anne xcke fndy kan?'' Again..i was like...err~~ Mamat ni merepek ape? Da ckali jd kwn tu..tetap la kwn..msti la cke bkawan..lau x,xkn bkawan.. Anne pn ckp la cmtu kt die..ckalinye die ckp ''Jd anne pn suke fndy la ni?'' =_=haish~npe la die ni cke cgt nk bg soaln cepumas cmtu.. Of coz la anne cke...cbg kwn la..x gitu Mr.FS??? Haih..ley jd mereng anne layan mamat cowg ni.. Pakal je kesengalan yg mch ley dimaafkn..hikhik..^_~

Welcoming Winter!!!!

21st day of fasting... Cahur kul 4am..4.20am back to bed... Mulenye pnye nantok time cahur...tp bile da mcuk bilik..cgar lak mate..cmpt bce novel cmpi kul 5am.. Bru nk lelap ckali my dear mcg..lyn mcg cmpi Subuh..then tido.. Arini anne bantai tido cmpi kul 10.50am.. Besh...tu pn lau ley cm xnk angun.. Tp bile fkir kje byk..angun la juak.. Adik anne lak pecah rekod angun kul 1.30pm!!!!!! o.O wow~
Aftr angun n ciap2..anne mndikn Pyrate...pstu kmas tmpt die.. Niat di hati nk mndikn M-Ber lak...tp xpat cz ttbe kne kerah brshkn tank aquarium yg pnjgnye 1-m lbh ckit..n lebarnye 0.5m lbh ckit.. Ok...kt cni anne gile sentap ngn prangai abah.. Ibu pnye la mntk abah tolong.. Ngan keadaan tank cmtu..lbh sesuai if lelaki yg wt.. ni x...mntk tlg abah..tp pe yg abh wat?? Abah wat bodoh...goyang  kaki..terbongkang depan tv.. Bile didesak 2-3x...abah g membute lak!=_= tahap kesabaran anne makin tipis da ni.. Ape pnye hubby cmtu?? X kesian agk tgk wife die wat kje cmtu..(Hopefully my future hubby n my frens future hubby wont b like diz.. Doa anne..cmoge kwn2 anne dpt hubby or wife yg memahami 1 cme lain..n prihatin..) Bile da nk abs kje bru la die ttbe muncul..ngn senang hati ckp ''npe tu cmtu?npe tu cmni?''.. Pakal je bapak tiri...lau member,mau da kne sekeh awal2.. =_=cket tul hati..
By 2.15pm...sume settle.. M-Ber je x mndi ag.. Kul 3pm lak kuar g uma nenek... Xcgke lak ibu nk amik Winter dan2 time tu.. Tp mce da kt uma nenek,tapak kaki Winter pn xnmpk ktne.. Laz2 ibu kate..''xpe la..jgn kne mkn kucing lain or kne amik org..''(nada cdey..).. Bru half way nk cmpi uma..ttbe nenek call.. Ckp anak kucing tu ade! Ape ag..excited btul rcenye..^_^ <3 like3! Then nenek kate nk dtg mlmni..bwk Winter.. Hee~
Nite...mak da bebel ckp tggu la die putus susu dlu..(alsan yg plg ley diterime la..).. Alsan lain mak kate nnt M-Ber mati bunuh diri cbb jelesh nnt.. Err~~agk mlampau di ctu.. So..anne ingt ibu suro nenek bwk Winter alek uma nenek cmule...tp... Upenye x!!! Winter is ours now.. Ibu ciap g beli botol susu n susu kucing ag.. Hikhik..xpnh tgk ibu pnye cmngt ngn abah nk bela kucing.. Mgkin cbb Winter terlalu memikat..  Grey-stripes in colour.. Datz y i called her Winter... 1month old.. Lau ikutkn mmg la cian cz x putus susu ag.. Tp...lau biar kt uma nenek lame2..ade kmungkinan mati ank kucing ni.. Mmg peratus utk ank kucing hdup kt uma tu cgt rndh.. Xcnggup asenye nk biarkn Winter mati gak.. Tu yg ibu amik jugak.. So....mlmni..anne tido ngn Winter...^_~
Finally..bjaye tidokn dak kcik Winter ni..trce cam tidokn baby.. Hehe..cute.. <3

10 More Days..

Hari ke-20 poce..10hari ag nk raye.. Wow~~~~ Harapan nmpknye tggl harapan.. Cdey mngenangkan ncb duit cndiri.. Hm..='(
Arini cahur kul 4am.. Pstu tido cmlu..trus xcdar Subuh..angun kul 7.25am!! Aftr ciap sume..wat kuih.. Arini wat kuih sarang semut..makmur kurma n mixed cereals..^_^ Pnat x tkate...=_= Sumenye settle kul 1.15pm.. 2pm anne tido..angun kul 4.15pm.. N cket bdn x ilang.. Pale tingtong... Pe ley wat..kuih tetap kne settlekan.. 10hari je yg tggl.. Next week bz ngn kek lapis lak.. 15cakes r waiting to b baked.. Sabar la bdn~~~
Mr.FS wat gile ag bile ngajak annne WC..=_=ish.. My Guardian lak da 1mggu lbh mnyepi.. Mne awk g??Sy rindu awk..=/  My dear one lak..like always.. Akan mnemani time free.. Buke kt giant arini.. Kt petshop tu ade ank kucing comel! Geram tgk... Hati lak asyik doa yg ibu akn amik ank kucing yg kt uma nenek.. (Lum ag memunye..anne da bg nme da..hee~ Winter..dat will b her name..cant wait till u b mine.. lau cant b mine pn.. U will always b my Winter..).. Aftr dat g kipmart.. Telur putih 6papan...butter 20buku.. Owryte..settled..
Alek uma kul 9lbh.. 10lbh la bru on9.. Mate nantok..tp still ligat nk bce novel..*peace!^_~v
20Aug2009...2thn yg lpas..hmpr cmggu kuar dr quarantine H1N1.. Tp anne ingt ag..even da hmpr 1 mggu..tp rmai ag yg mch tkut nk dkat ngn anne n kwn2 anne..tkut cgt bjangkit..haha.. 10-14Aug2009..My bittercweet memories..together with eton..nazirah..n aina.. yati..mas..diba n dila..

Cmlm penat...arini lak cgt2 penat!

19th day of fasting.. Tgk tu....tndenye tggl 11hari je lagi utk poce.. Trce cdey lak..nk ngs tu xya ckp la..lately ni mmg anne sensitive ever since anne rcekan yg anne xkn dpt duit anne cmule.. Fkir duit je..ht anne rce pdih..automatik la stress dtg lg..mule la cket plae pn tibul..mate lak pedih cz duk thn air mate.. Sudahnye..anne cndiri letih lyn emosi cndiri..tu lum cmpur letih ngn rutin harian lak..
Syok cgt bce novel..xcdar da kul 2.30am.. Laz2 anne ttup novel.. Tido..cahur kul 4am.. Cngguh..mate xley bukak... Aftr cahur tido cmule..cmpikn mcg yg my dear anta pn anne mamai2 je bce..b4 cmpt rply da tido.. Hikhik..(cowy la ea..).. Ncb la die call..lau x..ade Subuh gajah arini..=_= (maceh abg..).. Aftr solat tido cmule..6.35am dpt mcg dr Mr.FS..tp anne xcdar pn..angun utk wat kuih bru prcn.. Mm..like always..7.30am alarm bunyi..tp..nta npe anne xcdar lak.. Ckali dgr bunyi bsing kt dpur bru anne tjage..tgk jam 7.35am!!! Cpt2 g mndi n ciap utk wat kuih..kang ade dgr mak bebel lak kang.. Letih bdn ni xya ckp la.. Nk xnk kne wat kuih jgak.. Atleast ngn care tu..ley tmbah income mak.. N lau ade rezeki..mak salur kt anne lak..=) Arini wat kuih tmbikai n kuih milo twinkle.. Pnye la anne nk upload pic kuih2 tu lam ni..tp bluetooth lappy ni wat hal lak..=_=''haish~
Arini abs wat kuih kul 4pm.. Ya Allah~kalini anne btul2 xlarat da..cket bdn tu cmpikn rce nk ngs..T_T Aftr susun kuih..cpt2 g mndi n solat Asar.. By 4.45pm..settle sume n anne pn landing la kt katil paradise~(hyperbola btul..mnandekn btape mnariknye katil saat ni..).. Anne ingt..anne baring..pluk bantal mucuk..n trus ilang..lenyap lam mmpi.. Ckali 5 lbh si die call.. Mamai2 jwb phne.. Rcenye bru 30-35min anne lelap..tp lam mce tu pn cmpat aje mmpi n sumenye ilang bile dpt call dr die.. Aftr abs ckp..pnye la fkir ape yg anne mmpi tp xingt.. Laz2 tido ag.. Plan nk angun kul 6pm..tp nta cmne..xcdar alarm..(btul pnat ni..cmpi xcdar..).. Angun2 je dgr bunyi bsing kt dapur..rce kt tgn kanan ade phne..tgn kiri lak meraba cari phne ag 1..bile da dpt pegang..tgk la time kul bpe.. Ckali.........6.32pm!!! Mak aih! Melompat anne trun dr katil..ncb x tcampak phne yg kt tgn kanan tu..nyaris jtuh da.. Punye la kelam kabut.. Trus anne off aircond n kuar bilik.. Cuci muke... Haish~muke da cam org xckup tido 1mggu agknye... Then tolong2 ibu..n 7.14pm buke poce.. No wonder cnyap je x kne bebel..upenye mak pn tido.. Bile anne da angun bru mak angun.. Hihi..cmat~^_^
Nite...cmbung bce novel.. Mate pedih..bdn cket..tp cite novel ni nga besh! Xley stop ase.. Nk dkat kul 10pm bru la ade rce mood nk update n on9.. Like oweyz la..nta npe lately ni FB sarat cgt.. Tp besh la jugak..penghibur hati..jd pale ni xla fkir cgt tntg abah tu.. Abah tu msti nga ade duit tu.. Da 2-3hari ni lau die alek uma...ade je air bliss la..berri la..sumenye air yg mahal2.. Konon nk chat cgt... Bru tau...da 2x hmpir kne mcuk hsptal..bru nk beringat..tp tu mch xcdar ag..mch nk tnjuk dri hebat ngn ngutuk org..>_<ish! Mnyampah2.. 
C'mon anne..jgn fkir ag... Cool~kang dmm ag x tentu pasal.. Ujung mggu ni plan nk kuar cari barang utk raye.. N anne pn nk belikn sumting utk my dear..beli awl2 cng..t da alek UMT xde mce lak nk mncari.. Hope ade la duitnye.. Amin....

Penat~~~

Hari ke-18 poce.. Hm...kul 12lbh pagi..my luv called.. Aftr da sekian lame xgayut cmpi 1jam..(missing dat moment)..n ley lak arini gayut.. N seperti biace..lau x sakat anne 1 hari mmg x sah kn die ni.. Haih..tp anne bahagie..^_~ Utk seketike..ilang jap rce cket ht kt abah tu...=_=''

Golek2..kul 2.30am gtu bru ttido.. Kul 4.45am angun cahur... N x expect dpt mcg cahur dr Mr.FS..=) Thanx~ Aftr cahur..took mini naps while waiting utk solat Subuh.. ~_~zzZZZ.. Pnatnye bdn..tp bile fkir kuih org xciap ag..kne la wat jugak.. So...7.30am ready utk wat kuih.. Arini dicbbkn byk..abs lmbt..2.20pm bru abs.. Sudahnye..kne angkat n lipat bju lak.. Pale da pusing da..rce nk pitam time agkat bju...ncb x jtuh.. Alhmdulillah.. Aftr lipat bju n solat sume..trus landing kt katil.. N tido cmpi kul 4pm.. Lau ley xnk bukak mate..tp cbb nk tgk Laila Manja punye pasal...angun la.. Mm...cketnye bdn n pale..T_T Arini buke kt luar.. N anne tcnyum cndiri bile jam yg anne pkai rce cgt longgar.. Clalu button kt hole 3..tp ni kt hole 2 pn mch ley pusing2.. Means...da susut la berat anne..^_^heee~~

Hmm..rce bdn cam kurg chat..aftr buke g beli brg dapur kt kipmart.. Prangai abah~haish~mmg tmbh doce je agknye lau ingt..>_<geram!  Alek uma trus solat sume.. N at diz time..mmg bdn ni rce cgt lemah.. Nak2 fkirkn esk nk kne wat kuih ag..~_~adeyh~lemahnye rce... By 10pm anne rce cgt ngntuk cam x tido 2hari..

17...My Twinz Fav Number..^_^

Kjap je da 17hari poce.. 17..tringt lak kt bestfren anne yg dr form1 cmpi ckrg ni.. She's like my twinz.. Npe cmtu? Cbb...kiteorg ni spesen je.. Kegemaran...mmg kbykknnye cme.. Cmpikn ade ckalii tu..org yg diminati pn org yg cme! Haha..crush2 je tu dlu kn..^_~ Trce cgt budak2.. Ckgu2 kt skola lak asyik confuse bile pggil kiteorg.. Ain(Me) n Aida.. Npe hampir cme..ketinggian..size bju..kasut..sume cme..^_^hikhik..kau mmg d best.. Cntiace fhm bile aku mule mraban pape kt kau.. Hehe..thanx 4 everything.. Dlu masing2 cngle mingle.. Now masing2 da bpunye.. Tgk die bahagie ngn encik cinte hati die pn da ckup wat anne rce hppy.. Cgt sronok! Hope jodoh tu bkekalan.. <3
Hm...arini cam cmlm..angun 7.30am..utk wat kuih..arini wat Puteri Agong.. Byk tempahan utk kuih ni.. T_Tmak~~~~ain xlarat da mak~~ tp tpkce la buat...sabar2..=) Abs wat kuih sume..kul 2.30pm nk mcuk tido.. Call jap my dear.. Then bru je nk tido,mcm2 gangguan.. Mkck anne call..pstu jiran cblh pggil..then mkck call ag..=_=gosh~ Sudahnye anne dpt tido 30min.. Tjage bile alarm bunyi kul 4pm..cite Laila Manja start! Hee~ Pning pale ni cz tido xbtul.. Letih rce..esk nk wat kuih ag..mggu ni straight...jgn anne dmm ujung mggu ni da la..
Da mlm bru la ley on9.. Bukak2 je tgk 3 fren request..=_= Mgkin psni anne kne tgk lak fren list n rmove mne yg xptut tu so that kwn yg bru ley add.. Notification pn..xya ckp.. lau x 30min abs juz utk tgk n komen each notification mmg x sah la.. Mm..tp..arini len ckit..arini ade notification2 yg wat anne tcnyum hppy..^_^ Nta la..mgkin normal bg a gurl utk hppy bile tgk her love ones ade post utk die.. Arini anne dpt wall post dr die..hikhik..2x post lak tu.. 1 je persoalan lam pale ni.. My love ni ade 2 cbb je utk die post kt wall anne.. 1st reason...cbb mmg die rndu... 2nd reason lak..cbb ade la yg die jelesh tu.. So...mne 1 utk arini pnye post???nta..anne pn xtau..hehe.. 
Arini..dicbbkn si die da khatam my blog..(tnpe anne tau pn yg die nk on9..hehe..)..so..tau la die sume cite... N dicbbkn tu.. Asyk je anne dgr ayat ''kamu jgn nakal2 tau..''..n trus la anne pn tringt lagu alif satar-jgn nakal... hikhik.. Jelesh die ngn Mr.FS ea? Hm..nk wat cane..lau Mr.FS tu bukn UMT..for sure xlyn bile die ngarut.. ni..dicbbkn 1 U la kne lyn..in fact.. da lyn cam my guardian..^_^ hehe..mne xnye.. Mr.FS da cam my guardian... But..anne cgt bsyukur dpt si die yg cgt memahami anne..die xmara anne nk bkwn yg pntg tau jge diri..=) Of coz i will take a gud care of my self..
Mm...bile tringat rum8s n geng Persadatari..rndu nk alek UMT tu makin mnjadi2 lak.. Tp.....bile ingt nk alek U...msti lain lak jadinye bile pale anne automatik ingt sal duit..trus nk ngs ag..T_Tisk3.. I want my money back...='(

16th Day of Fasting..

Da mcuk hari yg ke-16 da poce.. Hm.. Sush nk lelap mate ni.. Si die mnemani..tp tu pn anne xks die teman lme cgt..cz nnt kang msti anne gak yg kne tggl sorg bile die ttido..(clalu cgt..).. Rce pedih kt ht ni..xtau la nk ngadu kt cpe ag.. Bile cite ngn makcik2 pn rce cam nk ngs..laz2 xpat nk luahkn cane cketnye ht ni ngn prangai abah.. Cyezly....ilang rce respect ni kt die bile die mule wat bodoh tntg duit yg die pnjam..trutamenye dr anne!

Bile da tido x mnentu..bile da tertido ckali tu...rcenye cam xnk angun..nk tido cmpi puas.. Tp..mne ley..lau anne x angun sahur..cnggup ke tinge ni dgr mak n ibu bebel ckp sal kesihatan?? Ish~~x cnggup2.. Tp mmg tpkce sahur gak..cz rite before sleep..bru anne cdar btape pucatnye muke.. Ingt ckdar pening pale je.. Kul 7.30am lak da kne angun n wat kuih.. Trce letih sume urat2 bdn..~_~ Ciap cdai bju lipat bju sume kul 2.30pm..n trus anne melepak n ttido..b4 ttido tu..anne ckp la ngn my dear yg anne pning pale cbnrnye..dr b4 anne tex die ag..(kul 11am gtu...)..ckali..ttbe die cam nk mara lak cz xgtau die awl2..haih la.. 'Dr.'Peribadi saye yg sorg ni mmg cmni lau cko tntg my health..cpt tul angin lau ade yg xkne ngn dri ni..tkut cgt..bkn anne mcuk hsptl pn..=_= Ckali die ley ckp ''abs tu..da mcuk hsptl bru nk gtau la?''.. Errr~anne da cuak je tkut die mara cam aritu..anne lak da cket pale..yg die ley nk mara? Pape la..anne jwb ''nta la..''..Pstu die ckp psni jgn xgtau die..=_='' haish~ caring cgt cmpi nk mara.. Then anne tido.. Angun da kul 4pm..pningnye pale..T_T tp gagahkn dri utk angun.. then cju lepak dpn tv..tgk Laila Manja..^_^ Pstu ibu alek bwk bju raye yg da ciap dijahit.. Yeay! Bju da ciap!! Tp.................................anne cyezly tkejut bile tgk bju adik cme besar ngn bju anne! Cume anne pnye labuh 2-2.5inch dr adik..lengan bju anne lak lbh 1lipatan dr bju adik...o.O wow~ Adik da bsr~~ Da puas bju anne adik rembat...nmpknye nex time anne lak ley rembat bju adik! Yesh! (Untung jd akk/abg yg bantut skit ni..bju adik pn ley laram...hahahahaha...)

Mm...mlm lak.. On9 seperti biace..menggunekan broadband yg slow ni..=_= hm... Mcm2 pkare bru yg kwn anne yg bakal mcuk UMT ni cite.. Atleast..lam cket ht..ade jugak hiburan..=) N my love lak..anne tau die mmg cpt cgt rcau tntg anne..^_^hikhik..kdg2 cam klaka.. Even die mara..tp anne rce nk ktawe je..hehe.. He's there 4 me..n he wants d best 4 me.. I undrstand..

S.E.V.E.N - F.I.V.E

15th day of fasting!! Kjap je kan da setengah bulan poce.. Harapan anne utk dptkn duit anne pn nmpknye makin tipis..TT_TT Xley nk ckp..ckp je msti anne ngs.. Trce pnat da..n rcenye now drh anne nga low pressure ag...cz lately anne clalu rce cam nk pitam n pening pale.. Kuat la bdn...jgn nk lemah cgt..
Hm..arini 15 Aug...means...da genap 7bulan pkenalan anne ngn my love..n jugak genap 5bulan kiteorg cple..or ley dikatekn tunang...(xya nk wat muke tkejut).. Btul la......Pnah bce x artikel tntg tunang tnpe cdar??? Mmg dr thn lpas ag pnh bce tntg tu..tp anne bru tau ckrg.. Laz week anne dpt buktikn kebenarannye bile da 3-4org kawan yg mmg ley thn ilmu agamenye mnyatekn mmg sah la si Hawa tu jd tunang bg si Adam..bile si Adam 'melamar' n si Hawa mnerime 'lamaran'.. 'Lamaran' kt cni bmkcd.. Lau Si Adam ckp kt si Hawa ''sy nk hdup bcme awak..nk awk jd isteri sy 1 hr nnt bile kite cme2 da ckup cdie...'' atau ''nk awak jd permaisuri/bidadari sy''..''nk mcuk minang n nikah bile da cdie sumenye''.. n ayat yg sewaktu dgnnye.. Manakala si Hawa lak mnerime.. Automatik jadilah si Hawa tu tunang si Adam..even parenz masing2 xtau..n even xde mjlis pn.. Hakikatnye..si Hawa da jd tunangan si Adam.. So..haram bg Adam yg lain dtg mcuk minang si Hawa tu..nmpk x tu? HARAM.. tp lau Adam yg lain tu xtau si Hawa tu upenye da pn jd tunangan Adamnye tlbih dahulu..maka xclh la..n xdoce..tp si Hawa kne la gtau statusnye yg cbnr aftr that..jd xde la kes mcuk minang tunangan org lain yg da mmg sah2 haram cz ley dikatekn potong line org yg awl tu.. Mm..cmtu la.. Jd..tnpe mjlis pn da ley jd tunang org tau.. Bile buat mjlis tu..kire da cam adat org kite..(kirenye yg ni bru officially parenz tau..)..nk tnjuk yg anak die da ade org 'cop'..jd xley nk usha line ag.. Tp yg cbnrnye pn..lau ikut islam..kite x ptut hebohkn pertunangan.. Yg perlu dihebohkan tu mjlis akad nikah.. 
Mm..jd..arini kirenye genap hubungan anne ngn si die 5bulan.. Trce mcm da lme..tp bile fkir2..cam bru je knal ngn die bulan lpas n mkn ngn die aftr drme drh.. (da mule rindu saat kt UMT..haha..).. Arini..wat kuih cornflakes madu..dr pgi cmpi tgh/h..then masak lak.. Pstu anne..lepak bce novel.. Aisya Sofea-Uda&Dara... ^_~ <3 Internet lak abah xbyr..=_= Ni da mlm bru ley bukk broadband.. Ni pn skadar nk tgk pape yg ptut.. Haish~~~~ Ni da dpt notis da..suro ciap cdie utk sem dpn.. Maklum la anne ni Exco Kebajikan n Kesihatan utk club BIOSIS... Ade prgram drme drh yg perlu dihandle buln 10 ni.. Hm..cmge sumenye dilancarkn.. Amin.....
Mr.FS lak...=_= anne xtau la die ni nape.. Dtg angin seronok lyn die ni..seronok la..ngn pale mengong die tu kan.. Hehe..tp kdg2 anne naik lemas lak bile ade mcenye die nk mnje2..o.O apekah?? Klh tunang org! ~_~ poning eden ngn ekau ni la jang... Haih~~ Jgn die wat gile bile kiteorg sume da nek U ni da la..=)

14 is My Fav Number!

Hari puace ke-14.. Hm..nice number..num fav anne ni.. Mm..^_^
Kul 3am td.. Mr.FS ttbe anta mcg wishing me gudnite..o.O hoho...angin kus2 mne la Mr.FS kne ni..rajin lak nk wish org..hehe... Maceh2.. xganggu pn..even anne da ttido..=)
Mm...so...arini mak dipanggil ke masjid utk terime sumbangan ibu tunggal..ibu bwk mak.. Mak ckp..kalini dpt lbh dr thn lpas..dpt rm320.. S i expected.. Tgk je la abah n ibu tu..pantang tgk mak dpt duit or ade duit.. Nta pape nta.. Sume nk suro mak gak kuar duit.. Beli gas dapur..ibu amik duit mak.. Then sesedap rase abah je nk ngajak buke poce kt hotel Tropical Inn..(pak andak anne kje ctu)..tp ngn syarat..mak yg belanje.. X ke macam haram~~~ Mmg poce anne rcenye kurg pahale cbb gasak sumpah seranah perangai abah je...yg ibu lak..24/7 dgr ckp laki die..mmbodohkan diri pn ye jugak.. Tension btambah tension anne... ='( Abah tu mmg lau ley bunuh,da lame anne bunuh.. Senang ckit hdup aku lau kau xde. Mcm !@#$%^!!!
Arini..xtau npe..ujan2..idung ley lak darah..o.O tp ncb baik jap je..

13th Day Of Fasting..

Hmm...setelah sekian lame phne ni xbz ngn mcg2..arini da kembali bz.. Texting n calling cmpi 2.++am... (da lme kot xcamni..clalu tido lmbt cbb ngs..tp arini x..).. Angun sahur kul 4.20am.. Aftr sahur..ttbe dpt mcg Mr.FS.. ''Anne...=)''.. Anne rply la..ckp angun sahur ke? If dat so..cmat cahur.. Pstu de gelak.. I was like =_= pehal mamat ni? Mimpi pe ttbe jd sewel.. Hehe.. Then mcg2 ngn my love cmpi subuh..pstu tido.. Tau anne angun kul bpe?? 11.30am gtu kot..tu pn aftr dpt mcg dr my love.. Haish~ Ttido b4 cmpy set alarm..cmni la jadinye.. Tp xpe..angun2 tgk ibu pn bru angun jugak..haha.. Im safe!!!
Kul 3.30pm kuar g Angsana..adik nk beli buku die.. N hati anne ni mule la memberontak bile nmpk longgokkan novel.. Memang anne nk cgt beli novel tu... Tp....anne nk mntk abah duit RM50 pn..abah x bg!!!! Mmg hot la hati ni kan.. Biace la anne.. Bile mara je..rce nk ngs.. Pnye la tahan rce nk ngs tu.. Cket dada dibuatnye.. Pstu ibu,abah n adik g mne nta..merayap kjap.. Trus mak lak bg anne RM100..mak kate ''Amik la..beli pape yg awk nk..'' Sayu gile hati bile mak suro amik gak.. So..anne dpt la beli novel yg anne da lme plan nk beli.. Tp...cket ht tu xilang.. Rce nk ngs tu tetap ade...cbb..... ABAH!! I hate him!
Aftr g Angsana..g uma tok andak.. N then..buke kt My Friend Tomyam.. Pstu g Pasar Borong Pandan..10pm bru cmpi uma.. Pheewww~~~~~ Ni kul 11.50pm bru dpt on9.. N my FB notification pnuh btul... N fren request pn ley thn... =_= pnat~~
Arini....phne ni x stop lak mcg mcuk.. Hm..=) Really mis dat moment.. Da lme xmnje2 sume..Trce cam lpas rindu lak..^_^

I'll Be There & Always There..

12th day of fasting... Hm..cpat kan mce blalu?? Da nk mcuk 2mggu da.. N..kerisauan anne tentang duit anne..makin btambah2.. Anne trce cam kne mnagih duit dari parenz.. (Wut the heck?).. Padahal tu duit anne!! Geram btul! >_< ish!!!! ='( Cmlm b4 Isyak..tu pn anne da cket ht ngn abah..ape x nye.. anne pnye potato hip mr.potato yg original flavor tu abah sepah lantak cmpi tggl habuk bru nk bg kat anne.. Hish!!!!!!Anne pnye la tahan nfsu nk makan mnde tu dr siang..ngat aftr Isyak nk mam..ckali...tggl habuk je! ='( cdey tul hati.. Mne x prut abh tu makin boroi..gasak lantak je.. *geram gile!!!!*
Around 1.00am gtu talked on phne wit my VVIP.. Die ni kan..anne xtau la power ape yg die ade..even anne xckp ngn die yg anne dmm..ttbe je die ckp ''td g KK kamu x check ckali?dmm kn?'' Mne x terdiam anne dibuatnye..o.O (lau abg notice la..anne cnyap ttbe..nk ckp tp mcm teragak2..).. Haha...bile da ltak phne tu,anne ktawe cndiri.. Hmm..^_~ Aishiteru.. <3
Pagi td..anne angun kul 10.15am..tu pn rce pale cket ag..cam xlrat je nk angun..tp nk xnk..kne gak angun..nnt kang kne bebel ngn mak.. cbb.....fmly anne xtau pn yg anne dmm..(merahsiekn dmm utk elak mkn ubt..>_< hee~nakal kan??).. Tu pn lau x..kul 8am tu mak ajak wat kuih..tp anne ckp bdn anne cket..trus anne tido cmule.. Huhu.. Tp...dgr la jugak mak bebel ''lagi ngengade nk drme drh aritu..(30July)..pstu..xckup revive..da start poce lak..blah3...~~pstu time buke mkn sto'et je..blah3...tau bdn tu xkuat..lg gatal nk drme drh..blah3~~''  Haish...=_= makin cket pale anne dibuatnye...tp xlme pstu anne xdgr pape ag..cbb tertido cmule..hikhik..^_^
Aftr angun tido..tex my love.. Ckrg ni die pn nga diuji.. By hook or by crook,anne cube utk ltakkn prcaan anne ke tepi (tntg hal abah ni la..=_= asyk je nk wat anne ngs..)..n try to b there for d guy dat i love.. Not much yg anne ley wat..but hope he knows that im giving him d best of me to help him go through diz.. Hmm.. Now die otw alek johor..save journey..
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Arini buke uma nenek.. N d besh thing is...ade 2ekor ank kucing baru!!! Umur bru 3mggu! Mak die baka baek pnye~~jd ank2 die pn... Huish~~~comel (mmg sah la..).. gemuk...bulu lmbut n cgt gebu! My parenz lak bukn jnis yg really in to cats..tp bile deorg pn jd cam tertarik ngn sekor kucing tu..means..kucing tu mmg besh lau dpt dimiliki.. haha.. Haih la~~cjuk je hati tgk ank kucing..comey~~ Nk upload pic..tp lappy ni bengong xnk bluetooth lak..=_= later la..
Mm..alek da kul 10lbh mlm.. Mcg wit my love dr ptg td..die cmpi uma die lam 5~6pm gtu kot.. N tex cmpi ke mlm.. I was like...wow..paling lme mcg.. cjak die mule kje.. Hmm..pape pn...juz nk wat die hppy..^_^ Seperti biace..even dmm ag..anne tetap je on9..hehe.. N anne agk pelik..bukan stakat junior bio,kmns..yg add anne kt FB.. Ni junior dr fedi(fizik elektronik dan instrumentasi) pn add anne.....o.Oapekah??? Korg clh senior ke?? Hehe..xpe la..junior lam UMT gak..layan la~ Tp.....npe la kos fzk? Watkan anne tringat kt sum1 je.. Pstu bile ckp tntg koko lak..rate2 yg add anne tu minat nk mcuk gemersik..=_= again..asal ade je samenye.. Haish~ Rindu dibuatnye... <3 Mlmni..anne bukak je FB,tkejut tgk asal rmai lak yg add...(ttbe rce cam femes lak! haha!xde mknenye..).. Hm.. Mr.FS..seperti biace..=) Cbuk die arini suro anne alek ganu jd ley g bazar ganu cbb anne kate anne rndu kuih2 kt ganu tu.. Hikhik..gile ape Mr.FS ni..lau jns tutup mate,cmpi destinasi xpe gak.. Ni.......lam mmpi je la~ Hehe.. But cyezly....i do miss bazar kt ganu..T_T

Cpe Pinjam PTPTN??

Da mlm bute ni..even demam...tp... Sumenye masih ligat lam pale anne..=_= Nga on9..ttbe anne tnmpk post kt group UMT.. Bg cpe2 yg pinjam PTPTN..hayatilah lgu ni.. Hikhik..gurauan je ni..

PULANGKAN (lagu misha omar)..
[dinyanyikan oleh pegawai ptptn ngan ex-student..]

...(Ex-Student)
Sedikit bunga yang menggoda
Sekadar dipandang usah dibayar
Kau pasti tak percaya
Duitku bukan untukmu sayang

(Pegawai PTPTN)
Tiada kusangka kau sungguh kejam
Kau peram hutang yang kau pinjam
Namun takkan bahgia kehidupanmu
Bila engkau berkonvo
kau milikku

Pulangkan hutang-hutangku-(Pegawai PTPTN)

Oh hentikanlah menghantuiku-(Ex-Student)

Oh pulangkan oh pulangkanlah padaku-(Pegawai PTPTN)

Kupulangkan semua hutangku-(Ex-Student)

Yang dikau peram tanpa relaku-(Pegawai PTPTN)

Bebaskanlah maafkan daku oh kasih-(Ex-Student)

(Pegawai PTPTN)
Tiada kemaafan di sini
Kau hutang tanpa bayar sesen lagi
Akan ku jejakimu kemana jua
hingga akhir masa..ooo syang.


Hikhik...klaka kan?? Peace^_~v 

Demam~~ & Info Bunga Kuku@Awan Kuku..

Hari ke-11 puace..makin suntuk rcenye mce yg ade.. Tp utk anne dptkn cmule hak anne..rcenye cam impossible.. Hati ni cketnye rcenye da cam mngalahkan org kne cancer agknye.. Hmm...thanx to hana n amir cz walked in here n thanx 4 all ur support.. I noe korg mmg cmngat team agk kuat.. Persadatari forever..=)

1.30am gtu..i went off9..niat kononnye nk tido..tp..cam biace..bajet anne tido la? Xde mknenye.. 2.30am.. Mr.FS sent mcg..tnye ''anne da tido ea?''..anne biarkn xjwb cz i need my time alone.. Around 1.30am jugak,my love call.. Hmm..lam dilemma anne...nk tipu die for his own kind?or...mnambahkan kerunsingan die yg da mmg sah2 stress ngn kje?? Of coz d 1st choice! Cowy again to my VVIP.. Pale gasak duk malayang nta kmane...laz2 3.45am bru tido.. 4.45am angun sahur... My guardian reply mcg sahur!!!! How i miss dat guy..

Arini kul 7.45am kuar g Klinik Kesihatan..bawak mak g follow up.. Pale anne da mmg tingtong cjak angun pagi tu.. So..bile bcampur ngn germs yg ade kt KK..makin nk mnjadi la pulak sengal badan ni.. 8.20am..Mr.FS mcg..melayan mcg die cmpi 9.25am.. My Gossipmate!! Mr.FS ni mngarut lgi!!!! hahaha.. Pedulik la mamat cngal tu.. Hmm..cmpi uma kul 9.20am.. 9.45am anne tido..cmpi hmpir kul 12pm.. Badan panas..ape ag..demam da..=_= Mm...
Arini..dgn rajinnye anne cari cbb nape wujudnye bunge kuku.. n..these r d rsult that i'v found..
Lengthwise (Vertical) Ridges
A deficiency of calcium may contribute to lengthwise ridges.

A deficiency of stomach acid may contribute to ridges. Stomach acid is required for absorption of nutrients, especially minerals such as calcium.

Reduced liver function may contribute to lengthwise ridges. See Liver Support Supplements.

Spooning (Koilonychia)
Spooning may be accompanied by cross-wise (horizontal) ridges.

Spooning can be an indication of anemia.

A deficiency of iron may contribute to spooning of nails with ridging, brittleness, thinness and lack of luster.

A deficiency of chromium may contribute to spooning of nails.

A deficiency of vitamin C may contribute to spooning of nails along with other ungual alterations as a symptom of scurvy.


White Spots (leukonychia)
A deficiency of zinc may contribute to white spots on nails.

Haa.....so..korg..lau ade bunge kuku..(cam anne ni la..byk x sush nk stop..)..jgn la nk caye cgt org kate cbb rmai pminat..rmai org rindu..
Asalnye yg anne tau org kate cbb bdn kite xsihat.. so..scientifically... cam kt ats ni la kot.. =)
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Mlm..da mule la pns cmule bdn ni..=/ Got mcg from my love time buke.. Seems like he's in trouble.. Wish i cud help him.. Moge dipermudahkn cgale urusan baginye.. Anne cntiace sokong abg..no matter wut hppn...
Saat pale makin pening..suhu makin tggi..dpt pggilan dr my VVIP..die kate esk die alek Johor n bhenti kje.. Hm.. Again? Bhenti kje!! o.O i really dunno how to respond on that..cz..tlalu drastik.. Mm.. Anne nk abg tau..anne cntiace doakn yg tbaik wat abg.. Awal2 ag my fmly da suro anne ckp ngn abg tntg kje tu..suro abg tukar..tp...anne xcmpi ht nk ckp..cz tgk abg tgh naik 2mggu lpas.. Tp ckrg abg cndiri ckp abg nk stop.. Lam ht anne ade rce legenye jugak.. Cz lately abg asyk ckp u'r heving difficult time.. Rcenye kje cmtu mmg agk sush gak.. Even anne tgk prgram Kenshido ni pn anne pning.. Hmm...pape pn...Moge abg jmpe kje yg lbh better dr yg ni..
Arini..anne kne jd org tgh utk 2org kawan ni.. They were a couple b4..tp now jd BFF...tp mlmni ley lak gado bsr..>_< Ncb baik la heroin ni ade..(ceh! prcn tul anne ni jd heroin..dri cndiri pn xbtul..ade ht nk jd heroin kan..) Mm..anne ni..air mate cndiri xkering ag..kne lak solvekn probs org lain...tp xpe..not that im regretting..or xcke nk nolong.. Anne cke..anne jd hppy bile anne dpt selesaikn 1 mclh kwn..trce cam mclh cndiri yg selesai..^_^
Arini anne ngarok kt ibu ag..(asal ngarok kt ibu?bukn abah? Cbb..abh tu..akn wat bodo je!).. Da puas ngarok,mcuk bilik,ngs ag...tu je la anne tau..(nta pape kan?) Then ibu kate..''abah ckp..t abah pulang ckit dlu..rm100-200 gtu..''   =_= nak wat aku hangen lagi ke ape ni????? Pantang tul lau kne berurusan ngn org yg xreti nk tepati jnji.. Bengong gile.. Ht ni..lau ley nmpk..nta cmne rupe da agknye.. Mmg mcm2 sumpah seranah la kuar..geram gile! Anne demam ni pn cbb stress yg mlampau la ni... Mmg biace anne lau stress lbh..pnat lbh..pape pn lau lbh ckit..dmm la.. Haish~~~

I Won't Shed a Tear... (Ignoring WW) Lyn 3KATA-KRU~

10th day of fasting... 1bulan je ag kt uma.. Nope..kurg sehari actually.. 10sept,im oredy at Terengganu.. Hmm..thinking of that..itz hard for me to leave home.. Even mak cke bebel..mmg naik cair otak ni rcenye dgr die mmbebel nta pape..tp...rce cam xnk tgglkn mak.. Nak2 ngn perangai abah yg makin teruk..n ibu yg mmg totally mcm org bodoh n dgr pe abah nk..=_= HATE YOU!!!!
The pain sets inside of me..it hurts me a lot.. But i dun wana cry over d same thing again.. Itz almost a month..i cant keep crying everynite..itz juz not rite... Hope evrything wil be over..where i dun hev to fake..pretend n put up a hppy face mask juz to tell people how fine i am when d truth is...im not..really do feel like dying inside..n emotionless.. Tp..xnk la org sekeliling yg kne tempias mood anne yg mmg xtau lam mood ape.. I'll get back to d normal me... So........^_~hm.. I am so ignoring Wordless Wednesday(WW) today cz...im gaining my gurlz power back..
Mm..my VVIP..thanx for undrstanding me..(cke tul dgr 'pakar motivasi' ni bcakap.. =P hehe..) Arini..anne lam mood nk lyn lgu KRU yg tbaru..dr kelmarin cbnrnye..mch xilang ag demam lgu 3 Kata-KRU... Asyik2 lam pale ni tngiang2 ~wo ai ni..i love u..aku cinta pada mu..3kata paling bermakna tapi jarangnya didengar..naan unnai kathalikaraen..saranghaeyo..aishiteru..3kata paling menyentuh tp jarangnya disebut~  Ish!cmpi nek pening pale ni asyik ligat lirik tu je..cmpi nk lyn lgu len pn,tringt lgu tu ag..=_= Enuff tntg lgu tu.. Mindset!Happy mood~~~^_^
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Nite.... My Gossipmate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Help!!!!!!!!! Mr.FS ni..die ajk wc kt Skype ag!! >_< I dun want!! Cngal pnye Mr.FS..huhu.. Ape la pelik cgt mamat ni..kate t nk ajk mkn cme..kan real live ley jmpe n tgk muke tu..xya la nk wc kan? Hm.. Kne la anne cube sdaye upaye utk jwb ngn jwpn plg cool..haha..

I'll Be Your Tinkerbell..^_~

Puace hari ke-9.. Arini anne da mule puace cmule.. (gurl kan~) .. Hmm..7hari gak tu kne gnti..=/

Mm..Nta npe cmlm xley nk control air mate.. Finally kul 4am bru tido..kul 5am cahur lak.. Mate~~melekat cam kne gam..=_= Xley bukak n nantok+letih yg teramat..~_~zzZZZ... I woke up at 10am..feeling like...........erm... I juz wish that i dun hev to pretend NEmore n stop acting mngalahkan dramaqueen.. But....nmpknye mmg tu la yg kne wat.. C'mon anne!! Lau wktu siang,dpn org,ley je pretend to be cool like nothing hppn...then malam pn ptut wat cmtu jugak utk seseorg yg perlukan that energy.. So...if by lying..faking..pretending..can make him hppy too like others.. Yea..i will do that for u.. Chop2!! Go for it anne! Fake ur smiles n make others hppy..^_~ One fake smile can light up thousands faces..
If thatz wut it takes  to make others hppy..then i will... Mcm la xpnah wat clalu..=_= Hm..arini buke kat uma je..=) Junior2 kt FB makin btambah..kadang2 xckup tgn nk melayan.. Well...tpkce la jugak kan..atleast seronok gak tgk kerenah dak2 ni.. Hmm..Mr.FS...nmpknye mmg xley 1 hari pn xde brite dr die ni.. Kamu cgt cngal Mr.FS.. Hikhik..tp care kamu mmbantu wat dri ni berhibur jugak.. Maceh..^_^ Mm...arini..dpt call dr seseorg yg mmg xpnah excpect akn call... Itz Imas Muet!!! Kawan yg knal kt FB..dr Indonesia..yg bkawan ngn Mr.Crush.. Iv onced had a crush on diz guy.. We were quite close.. Then..he want missing.. At that point..my instict told me that he's seeing other gurl too.. So..im letting him go.. Even Imas beriye cgt nk tgk anne ngn Mr.Crush ni together..tp..da tkdir.. Sy gak bisa ubah deyh~ Dia duluan yg tinggalin sy utk cewek lain.. Jadi sy membawa diri... Kamu pun tau kan..gimana ht seorg ppuan..^_~ Sangkaan sy ternyata benar yg Mr.Crush punya org lain..dan semuanya tbukti bila sy ubah status sy in relationship with my love now.. Kamu jgn marahin sy dong Imas..bukan sy gak mau..tp dia udah ada yg punya..dia duluan yg punya pacar..jadi bisa aja sy bsama pacar yg lain kan...^_^ dan sy lagi bahagia sekarang.. Doain sy deyh Imas..=) (ttibe speaking indon lak anne ni..haha..).. Hm...arini Mr.FS buke kt mne nta..die kate kt msjid ngn MB ganu..sumting like that.. Pstu die mcg anne.. Mcg2 tu..tkejut anne ngn 1 mcg ni.. hahahahhahahahahaha... (berair mate ktawe..).. Mr.FS ni mmg nk kne sekeh ckup2 agknye... My gossipmate...hanye anda yg ley tau ape yg Mr.FS mcg anne..hikhik.. Pstu kite cme2 tembak die ngn pistol air ok? ^_~ *cje menceriekan mood..padahal..rce cam nk bunuh je abah kt uma ni..=_= *     Dari abah beli brg meraban...can u juz pliz return back my money?? Heyylllll~~~
Hmm..nite.. My VVIP called.. As planned..wiped out my tears..put on hppy mode.. N...dgn jayenye anne dpt jwb phne ngn hppy...^_^ hikhik.. Listen to his voices..(in hppy mood)..makes me feel...hppy too... Yea..im glad..^_~ (mgkin abg akn mara if abg bce post ni..cz abg kate xcke anne tipu kan? But....bgune kan? Cam org kate ''bohong sunat''.. haha..padahal xwujud pn bohong sunat tu..pndai2 je wat cdiri..nta cpe la kn yg mulekn? But itz usefull! ^_^ juz want u to undrstand..that anne xnk tmbahkn stress abg..abg pn kt melake..katenye arini quite stressful n tiring.. tp...cmpt ag usha 'ppuan jadian' kan~ *konon bg jelingan tajam kt abg ni..haa..takut x?=P*  So..abg da stress ngn kje..xnk la anne tmbh stress tu kn.. I can b a quite gud dramaqueen jugak tau.. Da2..mnde da lpas..abg xya nk mara anne tntg ni ok? Juz want u to noe how much i love u.. <3 N anne wat ni sume utk abg..i want u to b hppy.. Scare xlgsg..anne hppy jugak.. Jadi..ok la kn? Jgn mara ea... *wat muke innocent n berharap* Hmm..^_~ )

My Silence is My Attitude..

8th day of fasting.. Anne ingt nk update mlm td ag..tp xde mood lak.. Cz xde rce nk wat karangan.. Kan laz post anne ckp my cik abg lesap da aftr buke kn? I tot die akn cnyap trus...upenye x.. Around 12am gtu he called.. Die ckp batt phne mati.. Owh~~ok... Hm..then he said sumting yg pretty cweet..mean a lot to me.. But u noe abg? Anne btul2 xtau nk rply ape pd ayat2 abg tu sume.. Like ''Thanx..''..?? Dunno if datz enuff.. S u noe me..anne kn ade mcenye  xbyk ckp.. But i really hope that u understand how i wanted u to noe that im really2 do appreciate u in my life ever since u'r in mine.. Abg ckp mgkin abg xckup memahami anne..xckup matang ngn hubungan kite while anne pulak cgt memahami abg n kje abg..matang lam hubungan.. Komen anne utk part anne..tu kan tugas pasangan utk cube memahami n kurgkn beban pasangannye.. N anne cgt x agree bile abg ckp mgkin abg xckup memahami n all that stuffs.. Kite cme2 mematangkn dri melalui hubungan ni utk face through pape pn in every situation.. N..abg cgt memahami anne cbnrnye..u noe?? Hm.... Sumtimes bile dgr abg ckp or nchat pnjg..(i like it u noe..^_~hm..)...anne byk diam..n jwb pndek2 je..(abg cndiri tau kn).. Bukn cbb anne wat x endah..tp..itz like.......itz juz me.. At one point,anne ley jd cgt pendiam..n another point,anne ley jd byk mulut.. ^_~hikhik..tu bile mood nga nk bcakap la..tu yg abg akn dgr mcm2 lak..tp byknye mngarut je kn?heee~ Mm..i juz want u to noe...lau anne diam tu...doesnt mean mmg anne diam..there's another language starts speaking..my silence.. U juz hev to understand my silence..n u'll get wut im trying to do or say.. So...jgn abg bosan ngn anne lak lau anne byk diam.. Cowy la abg dpt gurl cam anne..=) Mm..
I off9 at 2am asenye.. B4 that Mr.FS gtau yg die nk off n settlekn borg ape nta..die ckp nnt mcg la die lau de pape.. So...anne mmg xmcg la cz xde pape kn.. Nga mamai2 gtu..3.30am tkejut anne dpt mcg Mr.FS..wishing me gudnite.. Hikhik.. Then he said thanx for everything.. Errr..o.O??  Thanx utk ape??cyezly im clueless.. Ade aje Mr.FS ni...hehe..
Arini sahur kul 5am..dicbbkn ngs b4 tido..mate bengkak ckit.. Ish~ncb la x obvious time sahur..jd org ingt mate bengkak cz bru angun tido.. Phewwww~~~~~ N at 5.40am my love text..we texted for 15min.. Then i fell asleep..Tcdar kul 10.15am  n ade 2mcg dr cik abg.. 7.25am n 9.50am gtu.. Tu la abg..asal suro hev a gud sleep.. Mmg gud sleep cmpi xcdar.. Hikhik.. Mm..aftr mndikn Pyrate..bg die mkn..(makin gedik lak GP yg sekor ni..=_= ncb la kau ni comel~hee..^_~ <3 ).. Anne pn mule la rutin on9 aftr cdai bju sume..=) Hm..kul 3pm lebih..anne blog walking.. Ckali..nmpk post my gossipmate ni! Wah2...die ade scandal la..mnurut blognye..scandal tu kosm8 die..means...i noe dat guy.. Well..mule la usaha nk cr cpe Mr.S ni.. hikhik.. Yea~bile gurlz da mule sharing ni payah la kan nk bpisah..^_^ Atleast ht ni x kecamuk cgt..
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10.40pm... Ok..td buke kt luar.. 7pm kuar uma..bwk air sume utk buke lam kete.. 1st nk g mam kt restoren Mana Lagi kt Perling..tp..tlupe yg tmpt tu tutup on monday.. So..laz2 mkn kt Kipmart Tampoi.. Then g beli brg dapur ckit.. I juz dun get it.. S u noe..kan tv uma tu da ditukar kpd tv flat screen..tv yg da cdie ade kt uma anne lak,abah jual on9..n..dpt la pelanggan yg dinantikn tu cmlm mlm..(anne da mcuk bilik..xtau la hal kt luar bilik kan..).. Dgn RM400..so..terjual la tv tu kt owner baru.. Farewell~~ Now...g mkn tu..ok la..kate byr kai duit yg dpt dr hasil jualan tv tu.. Tp bru bpe ringgit la cgt.. Tibe mce nk beli brg dapur,sumenye kne kai duit mak! Hey~~~~mne g duit yg rm400 tu?? duit mak dpt dr surau tu yg x seberape nilainye pn tetap nk 'pakuk' cmpi licin ke?? Ley lak die kate xde duit.. C'mon la abah..ape abah buat ngn sume duit abah? Ni lum mcuk tgh bulan pn..tp da sengkek cam org ujung bulan nape?Da abs duit ibu dikikis..duit mak yg x seberape tu pn nk jugak amik? Mak tu balu ok? Pencen ag.. Dasar busuk hati pnye bapak tiri..
U noe wut?? I really do wana show u this middle finger so badly to show u how sick i am wit u.. Go F*CK somewhere else la lau kje tu gasak nk nyusahkn org lain.. Name je bapak..tp hampeh.. AKU DA CUKUP HANGEN DA NI!! ..................................Duit anne yg abah kate PINJAM rm2000 tu mmg xde harapan nk pulangkn nmpknye.. I feel so stupid.. Bodohkan dri...susah2 g interview..arrange time utk YPJ..tp.....sumenye mcm anne buat mnde bodoh sume tu utk dptkn duit bg abah pakai..instead of me... Hey Dear Step Father.. Ibu aku pinjam duit aku pn tau nk pulang..but u.....jus SH*T!!!!!   WHY...???? Cant u understand? Anne stil study.. I need that money for myself kt U n here...lau ibu abah ade ks duit utk kt U tu xpe jugak..ni xde pn.. So pliz..jgn la senang2 amik duit tu.. Now ngn muke xbsalah cam xnk pulang.. No..silap..mmg abah xkn pulang duit anne..tp ibu ngn BODOHnye nk gantikn ngn duit ibu.. Gosh~tau malu la ckit bapak~ Tgk la bini org lain~ masing2 kje but stil laki ade bg duit bulanan..xbyk ckit pn jadi.. But u??what kind of father r u?? Nk kate cacat..xkje.. No..u'r not like that.. Ckup sempurne...ade kje ag.. Tp???? *Speechless* Da ckup cket da ht ni tau?
Xley ke anne x nangis utk 1 hari?? Mungkin kalau anne stop study ag ok agknye? Xya sush2 nk fkir kos hdup kt U.. Duk uma..cari kje.. mungkin duit hasil kje tu pn kau nk kikis cmpi licin..cam kelape parut yg kne parut cmpi tggl tempurung je.. Or....bg je anne mkn pil tido overdose..biarkn tido x angun2 terus.. Ibu ade wat insuran nyawe utk anne kn? Lau anne mati..dpt duit bpe ribu nnt..byk jugak kn? Lau tu sume ley nk senangkn hdup tu!!
Astaghfirullah....im losing my mind now..='( N air mate ni xnk lak stop utk mce ckrg... I really wana say sorry to my VVIP cz i juz cant laugh for u at nite.. I'll cry when im in my room..isolated from d world outside..cz im juz too tired of pretending n faking smiles n laugh during d day.. Sorry that it hppned to b me s ur gurl.. Hm..

Dunno When Will Stop..

Da above 12am da...so..da mcuk hari bru.. Ingt anne nk update post yg b4..tp memandangkn da mcuk hr bru..kne la post bru... Continue dr post yg b4.. Anne lyn feeling...ttbe.............my love tex..11.45pm kot.. At 12.00-12.20am die call lak.. Aish~bad timing!! Cz ht nga pedih..anne nk pretend to b ok pn xpat.. Mmg xley jd pelakon la..>_< Kdg2 je jd..cam cmlm..kelmarin.. Die xpat detect..cbb lakonan mnjadi..(mnjadi la agknye..nta la..).. Tp...mlmni..im BUSTED...=_= S.O.R.R.Y to my VVIP.. I noe..xde ayat lain yg ley anne ckp ag..clain.. Maafkn anne abg.. Not that anne xnk share..tp..juz xnk jd tukang sesakkan fkiran abg ngn mnde yg xpatut abg fkir.. Pe yg pntg utk abg fokus ckrg..ur work....n anne xkn kcau abg kjar impian abg.. Go for it.. Mm.. In case ttbe abg ter-free n bce mnde merapu ni sume..jgn abg attack anne lak cbb xgtau abg..n jgn abg nk kusut cme.. Cz anne nga lam mood 'if-b4-ngn-abg-anne-ley- je-survive-alone-so-do-now'.. Jd...abg pliz jgn rcau.. Anne xnk peningkn pale abg lak ngn hal yg xseberape ni lau nk bandingkn ngn masalah org yg paling malang lam dunie.. Cian kt abg je...u'r so bz ngn work..alek uma lau ley tido trus.. Kt ctu nmpk abg letih..jd anne xnk la jd org yg turut wat abg btambah letih.. Mce yg abg ade pn cgt trhad ckrg.. N i dun think my stories wil fit in urs.. Jd xpe la.. Like wut i said.. Ur work is more important now..n about me lak..anne lum ag jd org plg malang kt universe ni..jd xya rcau.. I'm perfectly ok! peace..^_~v (lau abg da bce..sure abg tau npe anne angun kul 12.30pm td..truk kn? heee~)..Btw...abg ckp lau x abg ingt nk bwk anne kuar esk kn..(i mean arini la..itz oredy sunday..)..tp..abg gak ckp ptg nnt abg kne g senai..nk btolak ke Melaka.. U'll b away for a week..again.. Well...i do feel a bit excited bile ckp nk kuar..tp.....t tkut xckup mce t.. Plus..anne nga xde fulus..so..cowy..i hev to say no..n make excuses.. Anne ckp t abg tkejar2 mce lak kan.. Mm..mmg btul la kn...t abg kne rushing2.. So..xpe la..mgkin bkn kalini.. Xtau la cume prcaan anne or wut..to me..u sound frustrated bile anne ckp xya kuar..btul ke im disappointing u? Sowy if i do..didnt mean to.. Tp keadaan yg watkn anne ckp xya.. Itz not dat i didnt miss u..i do..i miss u..myb way lot more than how u think of.. Tp..mmg anne nga xde fulus.. Agpn...tgn anne melecur.. Anne mls nk kuar..cz lau kuar..kne kai lngan pnjg...cket tau.. So...i need to recover.. Hope abg fhm.. (of cz anne xcmpt nk ckp ngn abg tntg tgn mlecur..xpe la..ckit je..xcyez pn..).. Aftr we hung up..mcg 2x je..then cnyap je...no rply pn..(even katenye nk mcg..)..nmpk cgt abg letih.. So..cweetdreamz..

1.20am oredy...n i dun feel like sleeping.. (ape pnye pnyakit la ckrg ni..=_=hm..).. Duno when wil stop..all these tears..heartache..insomia... Nmpknye..my gossipmate akn jd mgce la psni.. (besh lak gelaran..hehe..).. Yup..mmg ncb kite cme..tp...pe ley wat kn..cik2 abg kite pn spesen gak.. Xpe2..lau time cngle mingel dlu kite ok je..jd juz anggp yg ckrg ni kite cmtu gak.. Gurlz power is all we need.. ^_^Lebbiiuuu!
2am above... Finally alone.. Cudnt sleep.. Kawal emosi.. Pale rce srabut.. N laz2 tgk jam da kul 3.15am.. Gosh.. Kul 4am lak sahur.. Aftr sahur tried to sleep..tp.........kul 6.30 am bru ade rce nk tido.. N angun kul 10am... Itz dark..raining.. Ade guruh ag..tp xkuat pn.. Mmg besh la selubung lam comforter.. Mate da xley nk tido da..fmly lak x angun2.. Ok~~cgt bushan.. Well..si die ade mcg kul 10.15am.. Tp pstu die ttido ag..=_= Hm..
12pm bru la riuh ckit uma..cz masing2 da angun... Ujung minggu..sumenye bermalasan.. Hm..cmlm mak dpt invitation g surau (utk ibu2 tunggal..)..jd ibu bwk la.. Balik tu mak ckp la ape sumbangan yg mak dpt.. N speaking of money...rezeki thn ni mak kate ckit je.. Dpt bpe puluh je..laz year dpt rm220.. Bile da gtu,abah lak cbuk ''Ehhh....asal ckit je thn ni? Sush la cmni..''  Anne xtau nk gelak ke..nk marah ke..yg psti..lau gelak,mmg gelak sinis..n sah2 la...AKU HANGEN DGR CMTU OK!! Ape xnye..mmg la abh sush..cbb t xley nk pow duit mak byk2 kan~ Pffft~ Sh*t.. 
Mm..mne x ht ni pedih je..lme2 mgkin ley mati cbb depression anne ni.. ='(  Si die mgkin da ke Senai by now.. Safe journey.. Moge cmat pergi n blk..
Mr.FS..thanx la mnceriekn hari2 anne ye..maceh cgt2... Everytime rce nk mngalir je air mate ni,msti Mr.FS muncul..even xbyk mmbntu..cz Mr.FS xtau pe yg anne lalui ckrg..atleast u manage to stop these tears ngn cite merapu..=')  Again..thanx..
Ptg nnt ibu kate mak ngah ajk buke kt luar... so..xmasak la arini.. 4pm lbh gtu..anne mcg la my love cz die cnyap ttbe aftr die mcg ckp kt highway.. S i expected..die tido.. Then anne suro la die cmbung tido.. jwpnnye... ''xnk..abg nk tman kamu arini..''.. Haha..cam nk nangis bce mcg tu...T_T  I wish~ Tgk la jap ag msti abg lesap..so...anne da xksh da lau dpt mcg cmtu.. U noe..da la nga xde mood.. Then..abg ckp ag..''im here 4 u..''.. Nta npe ttbe tergelak kcik bce mcg yg 1 ni.. My impression pd mcg ni..cme cam mcg yg 1st td tu.. Bg anne... It means..''lau abg ade,ade la..lau xde..nk wat cane..duty calls..so im not hoping..''.. Hm...now..anne nk kuar... Hope clear la ckit pale otak ni..
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Nite.... Td anne ckp nk kuar kn..g buke kt luar ngn mak ngah.. Tp...rite b4 kuar uma tu..anne nmpk abah signal kt ibu..(signal tgn utk ckp duit xde..nk kai duit cpe nnt?).. Haish..ckup2 la duk korek duit ibu aku.. Mmg la AKU HANGEN SATU BADAN!! So..makanan utk buke..anne pilih kueh teow cbb lau mnde yg mee2 ni sume lbh murah dr nasi.. Even beberape sen pn,harapan anne dpt kurangkn bil.. Bile stress,mule la pale ni rce cket n bengal.. ni la yg anne xcke..
Anne xcam adk..lau adik,die mara or memberontak,die jd cgt aggresive.. Anne lak sebaliknye..bile mood xpuas ht dtg..lam ht je kuat mnjerit..tp luaran,jd cgt x bmaye..weak..restless..rce mcm org yg dehydrated..cmtu la.. Hmm... My cik abg..aftr buke da trus cnyap.. See.....kan anne da ckp awl2 td... Mcg die yg 1st n 2nd tu cam kate2 utk mnyedapkn ht even da tau cbnrnye cmne..(clalu ditinggalkn)..tu yg tgelak ckit td..nk ngs pn ade bile bce mcg tu.. Hehe.. Mm..arini anne brokedown sumenye kt abg haris..anne nk abg haris fhm mclh anne bile mce anne xpat nk laksanekn tanggungjwb anne on time..anne bkn jns yg mgkir jnji...tp lau tjadi,mknenye bukn ats kehendak anne.. Cowy cbb anne susahkn abg n lmbt settle ngn abg...now abg haris da fhm.. Another unexpected thing happened.. td mce lyn FB..anne tolong la handle juniors yg curious nk tau tntg hostel kt page mjlis kolej kediaman.. Ckali.. Mr.FS join s admin utk page tu.. Then..mgkin die ade hal..die stop la kjap.. X lme pstu..anne dpt SMS.. Mr.FS kate thanx cz lyn dak2 tu..he really appreciate it.. Hmm..^_~glad to help..tu gunenye seniors kn..guide juniors.. Pstu.....Mr.FS ley ckp..''really apprecite it..nnt kte makan cme2..fendy blnje ye..hehe..jgn gtau org len tau..pokai fendy nnt..haha..''..Ok! This is my first laugh utk arini yg btul2 ikhlas dr ht yg cam kne geletek... hahaha..suci tul niat..ke ade cicak di sebalik frame? haha.. Wutever la Mr.FS..lau ade mcenye insyaAllah.. ^_^ 

Wut a Nite~

Puace day 6... Hm..cmlm.. Time nga gloomy~ Ade mmber bg link blog suro bce.. N.....mmg shocking yet cweet blog tu.. Ape x nye.. Our junior KMNS yg bru je abs mtrx got married! Cik Cahaya Hati tu umur bru 19thn!! Cgt cweet..^_~ Cmoge rumah tangge deorg kekal hingge ke akhirnye.. Moge si isteri jd bidadari bg suaminye di Syurga nnt.. Then...duk chatting ngn mmber tu..my kosm8.. N jugak junior2 yg bakal mcuk umt..(tp cme baye ngn anne)..n nad jugak..n xlupe Mr.FS too..(tp when it comes to gurlz talk..Mr.FS ni x tmcuk la..)..  Itz funny when thinking how time passes by.. One moment..tringat time bru mcuk tadika.. N then juz finished UPSR.. Pstu bru mcuk high skul.. Went through PMR n SPM.. Eventually zaman skola pn abs.. Pstu mcuk mtrx.. Soon..mcuk U pulak.. N bile da mcuk umur 20thn ni..bru realize..n trce cam diri mule tue..cbb....rate2 kwn sekeliling mule fkirkn tntg mce dpn.. Mce dpn di cni bukn stakat kje je..but also......Marriage! Bile fkir2 cam tlalu awl je kn?? But i guess..actually itz not.. Tgk je la bpe rmai geng yg da btunang..merancang nk btunang.. n ade yg da mule mrancang utk khwn! Trce cam blaku perubahan persekitaran pulak...o.O (lau bdk2 yg bru abs skola,mcuk U..blaku culture shock..mgkin ni situasi bg yg mule mnginjak umur 20-an ni..) Erm...wut im telling is true..based on d people around me.. So..probably my conversations cmlm lbh kpd mndgr cite kwn2..yg mule ade org nk mcuk minang..yg nga susun target n mcm2.. Biace la bile gurlz mule bukk mulut tntg hal ni..mcm2 impian kuar kn..^_~hikhik.. Jd..agk seronok la jugak dgr impian masing2 cmlm.. Yet..anne tetap rce sayu.. Ok.....cmlm anne xley tido lgsg.. Emo cgt lately ni..sensitive lbh...kuat cengeng.. (nta ape la nk jd...=_=hm..).. Tau2 je da time sahur...(ncb la mate xbengkak cbb cengeng..cmat!).. Arini sahur awl..kul 4am..4.30am da mcuk blik cmule.. N bru la anne ttido.. Tbaik la bile tido aftr ngs..mmg rce cgt besh n xnk bukk mate..^_^hee~ Angun kul 8.30am..tp tgk kt luar gelap ag..fmly tido ag..ujung mggu kan...da la cmlm deorg tido lewat..sah2 la kul 10am t bru angun.. Then..mamai tu...anne nk set la alarm kul 9.50am... Ckalinye....xcmpt nk set anne da ttido..(tu la..cpe suro cengeng cgt..pstu cndiri letih..).. Tau kul bpe angun? 12.30pm!!!! Mak aih!! New record! >_<ish3.. Ape ag..melompat trun katil n g mndi.. (haih la..ank dare cpe la kn? adeyh~ btul xcngaje..).. Da ciap sume.. kuar bilik..tgk rmbut adik yg mmg pndek tu mch basah...means....adik pn msti bru angun..bru la anne cdar..probably yg watkn anne tjage cbb dgr adik kuar dr toilet kot.. Hehe.. No wonder la x dikejut angun.. Masing2 cam xksh cgt ngn pe yg blaku arini..(or.....did i missed sumting? o.O hm?? tp cam x pn..rutin seperti biace..).. Ptg..bru anne meng-on9-kan diri.. N...like oweyz...bile Mr.FS nmpk je anne on9,die pn ''anne~~~~''.. Hehe..lyn la~ Anne nk lyn lagu je arini..tenangkn fkiran ckit.. Pale rce kusut smacam.. I keep thinking.. Ibu ckp drh papa O..drh ibu A... Lau cmtu...drh anne x spatutnye B.. But d thing is.. My blood type is B.. Itz biology thingy.. A+O= A @ O..cant be B at all.. Hm.. Xkan tertukar anak kot? o.O hmm.... Nta la..wat mce ckrg anne lbh pntgkan hal duit anne,duit mak..berbanding hal drh2 ni.. Abah tu lau tiap hari x wat anne cket ht x sah agknye.. T_T ........dah2 la mate...xya nk bazirkn air mate cbb org cmtu..mutiara jernih tu ade nilainye n xpatut dibazirkn utk org2 yg xlayak..kan3?? Hm... ='(
6.10pm goreng ikan...tp......mak suro kai minyak recycle tu..minyak recycle ni anne anti ckit...cbb...lau goreng msti die meletup2... Haish~ley lak die meletup time anne nk tbalikkn ikan.. Hamek ctu..!!...melecur tgn anne... TT_TT huwwaaaaa!!! Buke poce cm biace.. Abs tgn merah2...ncb xkne muke..(Alhmdulillah..).. Kate org letak colgate t x gelembung.. Anne da ltak...cmpi kurg rce perit.. Aftr cuci tgk........ade je gelembung! Tipu btul la~ =_= Ncb la xteruk cgt..but it stil hurt though..=(
11pm..alone in my room..mcuk bilik kul 9.45pm arini.. Ye2 je nipu ckp nk tido awl.. But actually anne nk larikn dri.. Duk lam dunie cndiri ag aman..xcket ht.. Kan~~~ Hm..chatting ngn Mr.FS..Mr.FS ni pulak nta kali ke bape nta ajk anne WC(webcam) kt skype.. Adeyh~lawak tul la Mr.FS ni..no way la... Lau nk cgt tgk muke...tggu kite alek U ok?? Time kt U t...ag real...live ag ley tgk tau? hehe..

Unexpected..Thanx A Lot..

5th day of fasting.. Means..1bulan 3hari je ag kt uma... So...cmlm anne meraban nta pape due to heartache..(cowy bout that...juz by doing that,i feel much better..so..let me be..)... N...cgt xcgke yg my ex ley lak muncul.. N he gav lotz of advise though.. Tp..mcm die xtau yg anne ni dgilnye cmne kn.. Thanx NEway.. U noe wut... Anne tau my prob ckrg ni lgsg xpenting (even if u say so)..lau bru ckit cmni anne rce cket.. Then..bile anne fkir org yg paling malang kt universe ni..tu yg watkn anne rce mmg cgt xperlu anne lean on anybody.. Im juz way too lucky than that person yg plg malang tu.. My ex ckp that anne shud lean on someone..cz we're living in community.. Mm..so much of community... I like it diz way.. I dun wana b a burden to others..no matter how close that person is..clagi anne ley bnafas,anne akn cmatkn dri dr dunie cndiri.. So..to my ex..dun worry.. Then... Yg plg anne x expect,my old buddy turut mencemar duli aftr she saw my entry..(kau follow aku ke?aku xtau lak..hee~) Thanx pumpkin.. Aku cke dgr pcakapan kau aftr kau tau probs aku..even care kau a bit brutal...tp..tu yg wat aku cheer up cmule..^_^ N that makes me miss The 4Teen'z Crew.. Kite 4org xcme pale..tp ley jd group yg besh.. We'll forever be D14'z C.. <3 Zaman kegemilangan dulu.. Aku rce freedom.. Thanx pal.. T kau picit idung GP kau utk aku.. Geram tgk die..=)
Hm...x lupe gak Mr.FS..mamat sorg ni mmg xtau mnde pn.. He dun even noe yg anne ade blog.. Cmlm tu da cntk je timing.. Phne kul 11.40pm ag da cnyap..of cz my love da ttido.. Anne mcg la Mr.FS ni ckp anne da off..lappy anne nk tido..die pn ptut off..lappy die ngs2 nk tido tu..(nipu je lbh anne ni kan..haha.. anne nk ckp yg anne pn nk tido..cje la nk time alone..kne la mlarikn dri dr dunie luar..).. So..anne ingt nk mule rutin perah mate la cam biace..Then..amik la port..bru je nk feeling cowg2..  Tp...xjadi..... Cbb....Mr.FS cbuk ni ttbe ckp ''lappy tido..phne lak bjage...n phne fndy ckp die nk kcau phne anne jugak..'' Ok~~dr elok2 mate ni berkace,xjd trus.. cz melayan kebengongan Mr.FS.. Hikhik..nta pape je merapu cmpi kul 2.30am.. o.O xcdar kot.. Clalunye time cmni anne da jd weak..bru pas stop ngs n mamai nk tido.. Tp mlm cmlm..xjd nk ngs.. Mr.FS call kul 2.30am.. N.............die wat supersavers! =_= (byk cdt??lau byk cgt,meh salur cni meh..=P heh..).. Jd..wut a nite...kne la merapu 1jam ngn Mr.FS.. Not bad jugak since mood nk ngs pn ilang bile bckp ngn org..nk2 mamat cngal cam Mr.FS.. Hikhik.. Laz2 kul 3.30am tamatkn pbualan.. N 3.45am anne tido.. Well...atleast mlm cmlm x ditemani air mate.. N hope mlmni jgn la Mr.FS wat gile ag.. Cz anne lum ckup lpas geram cndiri.. Clagi rce xpuas ngs,xkn tenang cgt... So..hope that my emotion jd stabil cpat2..(tp cane nk stabil..bile teringat je,trus rce cket n nk ngs...T_Tmasalah tul la...pehal nta sensitiv cgt..)..Hmm...mlmni buke kt uma nenek..(ade ank kucing ag x?nk men ank kucing!! ^_~ <3 )
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Xjadi g uma nenek pn..buke kt uma je.. Hmm..so..it was quite a boring day.. Ade la jugak mcg2 dr Mr.FS..tp kjap2 je.cz bile die tau anne on9..die pn on la kan..so...byk mce spent on fb.. Rite before off9,cmpat chatting ngn mirul..(my exKMNSian n now UMTian juz like me..juz die len kos..).. Mirul ni yg ttbe chat suro tgk video yg die wat... So..da tgk tu..alang2 ade die,anne tnye la tntg Mr.FS n My Guardian.. N im so glad yg anne cmpt utk chat ngn die about diz n get clearer thoughts.. Ape yg anne alami..i mean d guy yg approach me..sumenye Mirul pnah lalui jugak.. So..cbg seorg yg berpengalaman,die bg pndapat tntg situasi anne.. Mm..=) Quite logic ngn keterangan die.. He knows that im not a magnet..but myb im quite attractive.. Datz wut he said to me.. Thanx mirul.. Mm.. Then....kul 4.30pm tu anne da bushan xtau nk wtpe..tido la..cmpi kul 5.45pm.. Angun mndi..stndby brg utk buke..then tgk tv ngn ibu sume..(arini org astro dtg..tukar jd astro beyond la pulak..).. Bile duk sorg2 kt dpn..tgk rmote beyond tu,cam tgk phne bru pulak..belek2,godeh2 function.. Hee~ Aftr buke..tgk tv ag..cite Dan Sebenarnya.. Cke cite ni..cweet je.. Jmpe lam mmpi..berkawan..bercinte...sume lam mmpi.. In d end bru jmpe for real.. Hmm..^_~ Mlmni ingt nk blog walking.. (9.50pm)
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10.50pm- Xde entry yg mnarik phatian.. Alone!! Ni la mce yg ditggu2.. N jgn tnye mne my abg ea..cn4m la die da tido dlu.. Hm.....ncb ade abg dean..abg kesayangan ni! Nk kcau abg khalil,xnmpk lak..nmpk amir je.. Tp lum ade mood nk kcau amir... Biarla..xnk kcau cpe2 ag..duk diam2 je.. Hm..fkiran mule ingt tntg duit lg.. Adeyh~~ Ttbe rce nk ngs... ='( *mood sensitiv dtg ag da.. T_T isk3..*  bnci kne suffer n deal ngn feeling cmni..='(  diary n blog r my bestfren!lebbiiuu...heartless book n machine..   *stop n away..mngubat hati cndiri..*

If There's Nothing Bothering Me..Then Y do These Tears Come at Night..??

4th day of fasting.. Masak awl jugak arini.. Arini anne dpt tlg mak masak.. Cket da kurg..da x rce cgt..^_^ Alhmdulillah... Tp 1 ag prob yg clalu wat anne rce pening pale..n i noe itz not gud for my own health too.. Sumtime i feel so confused.. Wut a conflict huh..
Da cmggu lebih..im kinda heving sumting like....insomia.. I feel uneased.. My emotion..seems like being disturbed.. N no body wud understands me.. I keep telling myself that everything will b juz fine soon..n there's nothing for me to worry about.. During d days.. Im juz fine..i can laugh..smile.. N b...juz normal.. But if there's nothing bothering my mind..then y do these tears come at nite.. Since when..hmpr cmggu jugak la.. When i think about my family..my money..automatically akn nangis.. I feel tired..tiap mlm nangis.. I tried to be strong..but i noe im not.. Reaching out my limit..thatz y mate ni xley nk stop nangis..nangis cmpi ttido..ncb baik la bile angun pagi,mate xbengkak cbb ngs..tp...azab nk angun pagi tu..mate cam kne gam..mate jd letih cz da puas perah air mate mlm2 bute.. Bile lappy da off..both phones da cnyap..put my earphones in..volumes up..i juz wana ignore d world around me.. But....that doesnt help.. Mule la air mate ni kuar.. Hati ni rce pedih...kosong..cket.. Nak2 bile ingt prangai abah.. I juz dun understand that guy..watpe khwn ngn ibu lau tau hdup nyusahkn org.. Anne rce cgt x adil bile abah amik duit YPJ anne..lau ckit2 xpe..ni RM2000..itz 2k!! Xcmpi kt uma..otw alek dr UMT ke JB tu(12 May)..dan2 kt Mesra Mall abah mintak duit..kate ujung May n June t nk byr cmule.. Ni da mcuk Ogos.. 1sen pn xde! Cket bile rce tertipu.. Abah tu nme je kje..tp duit die lgsg xnmpk.. Sume mnde byr2 kai duit ibu.. Ni bile da pkce abah byr,ibu back up abah..on d dot lak ibu kate t ibu ks rm500 dlu.. I was like =_= WHAT THE HELL! Cpe yg pnjam?asal ibu yg kne byr? Im so hate u abah.. Blagak cam org kaye..tp sengkek.. Lau x sushkn org xpe gak.. ni......die nk blagak,org sume kne bersusah utk die.. BENCI!! Mgkin lau ibu khwn ngn ayah Lan or sum1 else dlu ag better.. Or..mgkin gak lau ibu jd ibu tunggal pn bgus.. Ni ade papa..tp xbg anne contact ngn papa..i dun care ape yg papa da wat pd family..cmpikn sume org lam fmly xley trime papa ag..even papa da mule nk amik tau tntg anne..tp rmai yg melarang ibu bwk anne jmpe papa.. C'mon~he's my dad..my real dad.. Jaat mne pn die..anne wjud cbb die.. Lau die xnk trime anne dlu n xbtggjwb..tp atleast giv him d chance now.. I really wana noe him.. Can someone understand that?? NOPE! No one does..itz juz me,myself n I wud understand my own feelings.. Sumtimes i do cried n hoping that atok will be there for me.. Lau atok ade ag ckrg ni...mgkin ayang xcmni.. Hmm..xperlu ade org gtau pn.. I noe abah ade gune sumting utk wat ibu dgr je ape die kate..sume sh*t yg abah buat,ibu kne tanggung.. Mak clalu kate ibu jd bodoh cz dgr ckp abah..xdenye nk melawan even abah tu cume mnyusahkan..tnye je la ngn sume pngamal perubatan..ustaz2...jwpnnye cme...abah gune2kn ibu..tp ibu..even da tau..tp mcm xnk usaha lgsg utk pulihkn cmule..ade cbe nk bwk,tp mcm2 halangan belaku..konon power cgt abah 'ikat' ibu..cmpi ibu pn mmg xnk caye mnde2 ni sume.. U dun hev to tell me that mak..i noe...
My family were juz awesome weren't they.. Itz not that anne x bersyukur ngn ape yg ade ckrg...tp..fkirkan abah yg cume mendatangkn kesusahan je,it makes me angry.. Angry with ibu..mak..my fmly..n most of all..im angry with myself cz i cant do a thing to help... Like they will listen to a 20years old gurl yg sah2 pd deorg child of d fmly..''parenz rulez...kids shut up..''.. Sumtime i juz pray that..kalau la hdup ni xperlu rehat n tido..sah2 cnyap2 anne wat kje part time..siang class..aftr class g kje.. blk kje wat esaimen n stdy..then ready for class again.. Hikhik..silly me..^_~there's no such thing in diz world to do sumting like that.. Anne cndiri bukn jns yg chat2..wat kje lebih ckit je,mule la pucat2 muke..pnyakit kurg drh n low blood pressure.. I can only do sumting light..bile i pushed myself doing heavy things..cket cndiri la pstu.. Lau xde suppliment x sah..trce cam zombie hdup.. Hm..=/ 
Now da dkat raye.. Abah lak sebolehnye suro ibu amik tv flat screen dr ayah uteh..rm150 per month..for 18months.. Itz omost rm2k isnt it? Tv yg ade tu ase da ckup besar..rosak ckit je..da ciap anta btulkn ag..bru rm150.. Wut a waste g amik tv bsar flat screen..berhutang ag.. Now cpe yg nk gnti duit rm2k yg abah pnjam anne.. n duit mak yg nta da bpe ribu ibu kate pnjm..nnt byr cmule..tp xbyr2 cz clalu short in cash..=_= Ape gune anne dpt pinjaman YPJ (utk blaja) tp cbnrnye kne bg duit tu utk kesenangan abah??? Lau abah n ibu cam kwn2 anne pnye parenz..xpe gak.. Sumtimes i get jealous.. Kwn2 dpt duit yayasan..ptptn.. Tp duit2 tu kdg2 lgsg x cuit.. cz parenz deorg bg duit belanje kt deorg each month.. Tp anne????duit ypj tu la utk sumenye..tu pn mch nk amik duit anne nape? I juz dun undrstand...tgk mkck2 n pkck2 yg len.. Cth cam m.ngah..kje biace2 je..tp...abg wen n is dpt mcm2 yg deorg nk.. Tp ibu n abah yg ley dikate gaji bsr..x cmtu.. Clalu ape yg anne nk,anne pendamkn..cmpi mce anne rce time tu da ssuai nk mntk,dan2 tu jugak adik potong line..in d end..anne mngalah..biar adik dpt pe yg adik nk.. Bile da byk kali beralah tu yg cmpi tahap ht ni nk memberontak gak..rce cam x adil..(jelez too much..) Mne xnye xckup duit..duit ibu abah wat joli..duit abah nta ke mane..tension gile bile fkir tntg tu.. Plus ngn dgr mak bebel tntg duit mak yg dipinjam pn xpulang2..btmbah cket ht.. Ade abah..serupe xde. Anne pn ade plan cndiri ngn duit anne..tp xley nk laksanekn cbb abah took it all away.. N tu la yg plg anne xley trime ckrg...itz mine.. Sume kehendak anne,kne ltak ke tepi..stelah da berbulan planning..duit ley lesap sekelip mate kt tgn abah.. It hurtz me a lot when thinking of it..
Nekad..alek UMT ni..lau stil xpulang my 2k,jgn hrp anne jge pemakanan anne..lau perlu,anne poce terus pn xpe..jnji ley save every lil thing thatz left for me.. Juz enuff..i cant take it NEmore..not like this.. Now im going to do it in my own way.. I juz wish somehow..everything will be.....great..easy for everyone... Hope that these tears will stop..no more crying at nite..alone..cz itz painful..n so pathetic..  Hm..too much confession to my lil blog..
Pathetic kn luah rce kt blog??da puas diary kne conteng..blog pn jd tmpt lpas prcaan.. Well..atleast bile da kuarkn sumenye ni even pd mnde yg xde prcaan,electronic,kertas....somehow rce much better.. Mm..da2 la utk gangguan jiwe ni.. Now..seperti biace..pantang anne on9.. Mr.FS msti popped out..out of no where... Org nga cdap lpas geram lam blog,ley lak mamat sorg ni ajk borak ngn die..tu yg dr nga hot,ley cool cmule.. Unexpected..nta cane ley exchange phne number arini...=_= Akhirnye kamu bjaye gak amik num anne ye Mr.FS? Hehe..biar la.. Katenye ''mlm t lau fendy mcg,xrply..ciapla anne!''  Erk!!o.O apekah??cke ht die je..tembak ngn pistol air bru tau! =P hikhik.. Hmm..npe la Mr.FS ni cme cam my guardian ea?care die serupe.. Mm... Puas lyn mamat ni ngarut..ade ke die kate nk rce masakan anne..=_= Haha..my love pn lum rce air tgn anne ag tau.. Somewhere somehow..gaye cam nk ngorat lak mamat ni.. Hey Mr.FS....adekah anda cngle??xde kje len ea ngacau anak dare org?? Hikhik.. Lau Mr.FS ni ade gf...kang xpasal kne flying kick ngn gf die kang.. Ade2 je mamat sorg ni.. Hikhik..kite jd TTM je ok? Haha.. Hmm..ye2 kate malam.. Kul bpe ea...yg psti b4 kul 4.30pm Mr.FS ni da mcg anne.. o.O that was unexpected.. Haha...4.30pm anne off.. Mcg ngn mamat ni cmpi aftr buke sume.. Stop for a while kul 5-6pm cz mamat ni tido.. Then stop utk buke.. Then isyak.. Pstu trus2an mcg.. N weird gets weirder.. Mr.FS mntk anne MMS pic anne kt die!!!! Errr~~ Heeee~ xley la Mr.FS.. anne nk kai tdung aftr diz..lau nk,amik yg kt FB.. =P haha..