Barely Catch My Breath!

15Oct12(Mon)....Ok...we'r ~:: T.W.E.N.T.Y-O.N.E ~ N.I.N.E.T.E.E.N ::~ Dlm cdar x cdar..hmpir 2thn da knal ngn cik abg sorg ni... Mm...jz hppy cz sume fmly anne da knal n jmpe die..from A-Z yg rapat2 sume da jmpe da..cume belah abah anne je xsume.. Ermm..anne lak? Bru je knal n jmpe ibu,ayah n adik die..lain2....mm...ade la sorg kazen die tu..tu pn tserempak gtu2 je time kiteorg mrayap..=) hehe.. N yes! I am officially sick today..(yeay???).. Adeyh la...batuk  seseme...da bzaman x batuk seseme,nta virus mne lak tsangkut ni..>_< Hmm...mlm...mngemaskini slide..btulkn mne yg ptut..baiki sane sini..
16Oct12(Tue)...Rutin cam biace... Mule start dmm..Hmm...i really do miss mak n abg..rce cam bru mggu lps g rye cme2 kt uma tok busu..Mm.. Cjak due2nye pergi..tiap mlm anne rce tkut nk tido..kdg2 tu rce mcm tu la mlm trakhir bg anne...seolah-olah..once anne ttup mate utk tido,there will be no tomorrow for me.. N mmpi yg da lme tu mule jd fresh bg anne.. Xclap,lam 3 bulan before anne start kai tudung,anne ade mmpi..n mmpi tu mmg anne xcke.. Lam mmpi tu,anne nga wat ape nta...ttbe dtg sumone dr blkg n kelar leher anne..so..mati on d spot la cmtu.. 1st rce cam leher pedih..tp lam mce 3saat pstu anne mule rce terawang-awang... Soon later,anne nmpk jasad anne..anne mule takut.. Then anne cube peluk ibu,mak..sentuh adik..tp sumenye xley... In fact,they can walk through me! (mmg cam lam cite kt tv la..).. Anne nmpk sume org ngs kt cblh jasad anne...n anne nmpk si die pn cdey.. Anne cube jerit...tp deorg sume xdgr anne pn.. Lam mmpi tu,anne geram cgt ngn org bunuh anne ttbe tu..anne xcmpt nk wat pape pn...mati saje je cmtu.. Hancur terus hrpn nk bahagiekn ibu n mak..nk bine life cndiri..ade fmly cndiri..nk bsrkn ank2 cndiri... Abs lebur cmtu je angan2 cz im dead.. Bile org nk tanam anne...tu la saat yg paling anne takut..cz i knew...once they left, akan mule khidupan alam barzakh...pahala dose sume diamik kire.. kesenangan n siksa sumenye bgantung pd amalan.. Mce tu mmg takut cgt2.. Lam mce ketakutan tu,terus anne tjage.. hmm...agknye cmtu la prcaan org yg ninggal kn?? Cmtu ke arwah abg rce rite after accident? tpinge2..bingung..xterkilan?? N bile tringat sume ni,mmg sush la anne nk lelap pstu..hnye akn tido bile terlelap cndiri..xtau pn bile ttido..tau2 alarm pagi da bunyi.. Alhamulillah...masih diberi nafas utk teruskn hari yg sterusnye..
17Oct12(Wed)...arini submit draft slide proposal pd due2 SV.. Pheww...FYP..u really got me..xley nk bnafas ngn tenang rce.. Mm..arini dmm ag..tekak pahit... yek! >_< =p Hm...tp yg bgusnye...dmm kalini,nafsu mkn x ilang pn..hehe..
18Oct12(Thurs)...Mm..arini bru dpt feedback from both SV...ade ag ckit yg nk kne perbetulkn.. Haish >_<makin nervous!! Luse kne present!! Org ptame tu...aduyai~ Mm...arini Nad g kem kebudayaan.. Hmm...jeleshnye xpat ikut..=/ cbbnye esk ade test...luse present..(kekalutan mule trce).. Duk stdy Marine Natural Product cmpi kul bpe nta...
19Oct12(Friday)..test MNP kul 10am...alhmdulillah..boley la kot agknye..heee... Yg pntg,test da lpas...now fokus slide! Mm...rcenye arini da kurg da dmm...tp xbesh cz tkak rce pahit...means..dmm x baik ag... Mmm.....
20Oct12(Sat)....OK!!!! Presentation at 8.45am..started from the 1st presenter...that is me! Abs je present,mule la sesi tembak mnembak dr panel..adeyh la..mls la nk fkir cgt..mmg otak anne nga kosong pagi tu..main amik endah x endah je ngn soalan panel..jwb pn men jwb ape yg anne tau..yg anne xtau...pedulik la.. Yg pntg,lege cz da abs present..YEAY!!! But not so yeay la kan..cz kne fokus on written proposal yg x wat satu patah perkataan pn ag...jgnkn satu pkataan..satu huruf pn xde ag...Haih~ So..staying up utk wat written proposal... (Mm...bgus gak stay up cz ade kje...atleast anne xde la takut cgt bile tiap kali mlm..cz takut nk tido..hmm..)..
21Oct12(Sun)...Anne angun kul 10am..haha..tu la...tido ag ls subuh..Mm...well..actually a bit tkilan utk arini.. cz every sunday nite je,ade je mnde yg spoilkn mood..ade je yg ruining my sunday nite...watkn rce cam cgt mls nk wat ape2 in the nex morning..same feeling i got here..arini rce xde mood nk wat mnde..tp...esaimen ttp esaimen..they nvr wait...ttbe dpt lak mcg dr dr.hazlina(my FYP mama)...die kate die nk written proposal slewat2nye esk before 5pm...aduyai!! o.O!!?!!WHAT?!??!! >_< X tido la jwbnye mlmni... So...pulun la anne wat mnde alah ni..cmpi 1.45am anne stop...22Oct12(Mon)...2.15am anne nk tido jap..set jam kul 4am..tp xcdar..celik mate tgk2 da kul 5.45am..terus solat subuh..n then smbung kje...niat nk poce arini...tp...nta cane anne tlupe...kul 7lbh pgi anne g ngap kurma salut choc wit almond.. Kul 10am bru tringat! Tbaik kn?? Tp anne teruskn poce.. Mm..abg Faiz ckp...lau kite nga poce...but then tlupe n g mkn,means Allah mmg nk bg rezeki kt kite.. Poce..tp free2 je dpt mkn.. hehe.. NEway..anne tetap truskn poce.. Mm..arini anne ngadap written proposal ag..kul 2pm bru sumenye complete.. Anne ponteng cls 2-3pm arini...haha.. 2pm bru ciap proposal..then 2.40pm anne grak g print n g anta kt mama FYP.. Alhmdulillah..selesai gak akhirnye..tggu feedback lak..
Mm...dan malam pn mnjelma cmule....ktakutan yg ade tiap mlm tu xpnh ilang.. Hmm...anne juz hrp...if pape jd kt anne suatu hr nnt,lau ditakdirkn umur ni xbpe nk pnjg...anne hrp cpe2 yg mngenali diri ni maafknlah slh n clap anne.. Anne cyg sume kwn2 anne...especially my guardian(thnx for everything..awk la Orion sy yg cntiace bg cmngt tnpe jemu bile sy down)..my bestfrenz...my twin...my SNSS Fmly...n x lupe gak my abg (zal)(thnx cz bnyk jg anne cpnjg kite jd kosm8 ni)...n etc2... maafkn anne ye? Ingtlah anne dlm doa korg jugak... Then...tolong cmpikn pd keluarge anne,especially ibu,gtau die yg anne cyg die cgt2..maafkn anne lau xpat jd anak yg baik spt yg diharapkn..atleast anne da cube.. I love my fmly so much..<3 N lau ditkdrkn anne pergi dlu,tolong gtau ibu anne yg anne nk papa anne ade bcme before anne turun tanah.. N pd kwn2 yg ade pic anne freehair,mohon diberikan pd family anne..n jgn cmpn gmba anne yg x tutup aurat ngn sempurne.. (anne nk mntk tolong korg ringankn dose anne)..(anne tau anne x baik mne..but anne cube utk brubah ke arah kbaikan..).. N pd si die,cmpn la amanat tu baik2...u know wut to do lau pape jd pd diri ni..promiz me u wont forget... Juz takut..mne la tau..sumenye xdpt nk dijgkekn.. Hrpnye sempatla anne dirikn mahligai dlu n merase nikmat dikelilingi anak2 cndiri yg soleh n solehah(insyaAllah)...yg akn mendoakn diri ni if diri ni kembali kepadaNYA... n nk gak tgk my cweethearts menceriekn their granny, granpa..uncles..unties..n everyone in my fmly..<3 Lau mak x cmpt nk merase,hrpnye atleast ibu dpt merase bg pihak arwah mak...Mm..^_~ 
Well..ckup la tntg tu kot..da cite pn,rce gusar tu x ilang.. Mlmni ke studio lak..ade 2nd audition..=) Psni,kiteorg pulun utk Festkum lak..^_^ <3