3months
to go….
As
the preparation is ongoing… I find myself in a complete misery of dilemma
issue.. Trying my best to find the strength I needed to confront my mom. About……’the
wali’… Yes…susah jadi perempuan ni bile nak kahwin, kene ade wali.. Kene pulak
bile wali ni jenis yg ade bad history dgn ibu n family pihak ibu.. Camne nk
buat? Sudahnye….awal2 after dirisik.. Ibu warning “Nanti da kahwin, kene ikut
ckp suami..sbb syurga tu bawah suami.. So…skrg belum kahwin lg kn? Jadi kene
dgr ckp ibu sbb syurga tu bawah tapak kaki ibu.. Jadi….kahwin nanti xpayah
panggil papa. Pakai wali hakim je. Ibu x nak die ade kat mane2 majlis pun..”….
Terdiam kite dibuatnye.. Hukum mane ibu pakai ni.. Jahat mcm mne pn…die tetap
wali sah. Hurmm…mmg kalau ikut kate hati..kite akan marah dgn org yg bergelar ‘papa’
ni.. Rase mcm terbuang dibuatnye… Rase mcm x adil dilayan mcm ni.. Tp………deep
inside of me… I wished for him to be there on my birthday..or if he cant…I need
him only once..just one more time..that’s for my solemnization. Atleast, if the
day after I’m forbidden to meet him ever.. I stil can save his face n look in
my memory.. He’s the guy that made me.. No matter how bad n cruel he was
before.. That’s the guy that I wana thank for.. If he’s not there from the very
first place, there will be no me..n if it wasn’t because of him, there’s no
chance for me to have this wonderful life.. With these loving people around
me.. Ibu…my supercalifragilisticexpialidocious family.. and my dear future
husband that I love with all of my heart.. So.. I really wana thank you papa..
Hmm…back to my problem.. Ok..tu time risik die da warning cmtu.. Now its time
for me utk buat kad kahwin pulak.. Name pn disuro ubah..=_= Why should i… I really
hate it.. *tahap rase nk mmberontak pulak da*.. Asyik nk fikir pihak ibu.. Then
pihak kite ni?? Baru nak ajak ibu bincang pasal kad..die da emo terus xnak ckp
pape… Habis tu mcm mne nk ajak bincang pasal wali??
Seriously
my heart is already crying… Hmm…
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