Tenanglah Mak di Sana..Al-Fatihah..='(

3Sept12...da cmggu..rutin anne..angun pagi basuh bju..sidai bju..lau ibu kate msak,anne masak..lau x,x la..bile kul 4pm je btolak ke HSI...tp utk arini..kul 5pm bru gerak ke HSI.. Tlewat ckit cz ibu byk kje kt ofis.. Cmpi HSI kul 5.30pm.. Ibu n adik trus masuk jmpe mak.. aftr adik kuar,anne lak mcuk...Arini sronok tgk mak.. Mask gas yg bsr tu da tukar ngn tiub yg kcik je.. mak da getting better.. da ley mam mende2 yg soft.. arini die mintak mcm2..tgk adik minum Zapple F&N,die mntk ckit..so..bg la die jamah 50cc... Pstu anne cuap mak jelly.. time ni ibu kuar g solat.. Bual2 ngn mak ckit..suare die xde cgt..so..mcm berbisik..kne dgr btul2.. Mak rcaukn anne nk alek UMT t..
Mak: Balik UMT abah anta?? Sape lg ikut?
Me: Abah je la kot..ngan adik..ibu xde..
Mak: Ckp la ngn bubu..suro ikut tman abah..lau die xde duit ke,xyah bwk kete die..suro die naik satu kete ngn abah ckali tman abah..
Me: Nta la mak..xnk la kcau die..
Mak: Kan jmaat mlm btolak..sbtu tu aftr anta awk,kn abah btolak blk JB cmule..
Me: Mm..tgk la mak..=)
Mak: *smiling*
Pstu ibu mcuk.. Then mak suro anne trun g bli air cincau n mineral yg cjuk.. So i did.. mce anne trun nk beli cincau tu berselisih ngn cik N.. Aftr anne da beli,anne bg mak jamah air cincau 50cc jugak... Pstu cik N mcuk..then haziq came in..so anne kuar utk bg haziq jmpe mak.. Pstu cik N n ibu spend time ngn mak.. Bile cmpi time nk alek..omost 7pm..anne mcuk lam bilik mak..ibu kuar jap..tggl anne n cik N..ckp2 ckit ngn mak..time tu cik N nga cuap ayam yg hsptl bg..sup ayam..tp mak ratah ayam je..ns sume xnk mkn pn..again..mak rcaukn anne...die suro anne bncg ngn Bubu...mak2... Itz 6.55pm..ttbe mak long muncul..mencungap die cz tkut tlewat nk jenguk mak.. hehe.. 7pm..we left d room..mak looks hppy je.. My laz words to her.. ''bye mak..*salam*..esk jmpe ag k? *smiling*''..mak lak mengangguk n cnyum.... So..alek dr HSI stop kt Restoran Yasin utk dinner.. Alek uma around 9.++pm.. Start on9 dkat2 kul 11pm.. Cudnt sleep til 1.30am... 

4Sept2012(Tuesday)...
Tido..anne mmpi yg anne alek UMT..ibu,adik n abah anta...tp mak da xde da lam mmpi tu..i tried to make myself bz wit my snss fmly..bru je duk se-table ttbe tjge dr tido..itz omost 4am..continue back to sleep..n ttbe pntu bilik anne digendang kuat..n i heard that ibu was shouting.. Tkejut anne.. bukak2 pntu tgk ibu ngn muke begkak bru angun tido plus mate merah n jerit ''Ain! Jantung mak bhenti! Hsptl call..cpt!'' I took my watch..itz 4.12am.. So anne ngn mamai2nye g gosok gg n ciap2.. 4.20am we'r out..reached d hsptal at 4.45am..Cmpi kt lobby,Cik Anan call ibu..xtau la ape yg cik ckp..tp ttbe je ibu blari n ckp ''sy ade kt bwh ni..'' ngn nada nk mnangis..anne follow lari gak..bile mcuk lif,ibu mcm teresak nangis..tp xnmpk air mate ag..cume nmpk muke ibu pucat..anne dgr ibu ckp ''mak xde..''tp anne cm xcye.. anne lak da mule nk mnangis.. Cmpi tgkt 7..tgk cik Anan kt luar CCU tutup mate..anne pnye air mate da mule mnitik.. Ikut ibu lari mcuk lam bilik mak...ibu tgk g kt mak anne pgang pale mak..bukak mate mak.. ibu ckp ''akak....kite da dtg ni..akak bngun la ni..tgk..ila da dtg..'' Anne tgk cmtu..makin berjurai air mate..anne pgang tgn mak..lengan mak..normal temperature..itz like mak masih ade..anne tgk mesin die..sumenye straight line..n tgk Dr. cube tnangkn ibu.. byk kali ibu ckp ''da cube ke?? cube la lagi..pliz..cube lagi..'' Muke ibu stil pucat..mate merah ckit..tp ibu cm mnangis x mnangis.. Bile Dr. ckp ''jntung die mule stop kul 3.40am..kami da cube yg tbaik.. maafkn kami kak..sabar ka..bwk btnang..terimalah pmergian die..''.. Terus ibu nangis n hug nurse sblh die.. N then bru ibu hug mak n kiss dahi mak.. Anne lak hnye mampu sebut pkataan ''mak'' n terus nangis.. Anne pgang tgn mak..bru cmlm tgn tu anne salam..anne cium... Ttbe mak ngah mcuk.. Mak ngah nmpk tnang..tp anne tau die tgh nangis... anne beralih ke kaki mak n biar mak ngah lak diri cblh mak.. anne sentuh kaki mak bwh climut.. Kaki mak cjuk..n mule mngeras...tp tgn masih normal temperature.. Then nurse suro kiteorg kuar dlu cz nk tgglkn wayar2 yg ade n jarum kt tgn mak.. Cyezly...anne rce cam sush nk caye yg mak da xde..n xdpt bcme die di saat die hembuskn nfs trakhir..terkilan.. I called him bile dpt mcg dr Bubu when he asked ''hows mak?''.. Bile dgr cuare die..anne trus ngs.. Bile rce agk tnang..bru cube utk bckp n told him wut hppnd.. Bile fmly yg lain mule cmpi..anne ended call n stay wit my fmly.. Sad atmosphere surrounding us.. 6.15am cmpi kt pusat forensik..nk mndikn jenazah kt ctu.. Tp org yg uruskn jnazah tu lbt cmpi..6.45am..called Bubu..he's ready to go to work when he asked do i need him there or he can go to work..at 1st i askede him to go to work..But then ibu n Cik N said ''suro la die amik cuti..phormatan trakhir utk mak..die knal mak..mak pn knal die..''.. So..called him again n asked him to take a leave. N he did.. Kul 7.20am bru mule nk mndikn jnazah.. Anne,ibu,mak ngah n cik N tlg mndikn jnazah mak..1st time anne tlg mndikn jnazah.. Itz so sad whenever i look at her face.. Setel mndikn,kafankn pulak.. Kul 8.15am btolak utk bwk jnazah mak ke rumah..anne n Cik N naik van jnazah..van tu lju gile..=_= Cmpi uma,org da ramai..Bubu pn oredy there..anne trun je dr van,Mak Uteh peluk anne dlu..then jiran anne.. Im crying..they'r crying..everyone's crying.. Baringkn jnazah kt hall..n mule bce yassin.. Tgk si die bcekn yassin utk mak..makin sayu rce.. Anne lak dpt bce 2 round je..cz kne mnymbut ttamu yg dtg.. Kul 11.++am deorg cmygkn jnazah.. 12pm mule bwk jnzh kuar uma..n konvoi rmai2 ke tanah pkuburan kebun teh.. Mmg arwah mak ade tgglkn memo..lau pape jd kt die,die nk kebumi kt cblh arwh hubby die.. So...there...we sent her there.. Mce nk timbus kubur..anne tkejut bile cik Anan n ibu pggil Bubu ''Hafis,cni..'' utk tlg same timbuskn kubur mak.. Nampaknye fmly anne mmg trime si die n jdkn die cam ahli kluarga kiteorg.. Im so glad watching that.. Mm...abg ckp lau kite khwn nk bwk mak tggl cme ngn kite..tp nmpknye x cmpt..='( jz dpt tgk abg tolong timbus kubur mak..sume pkck n adik cdare anne yg llaki bergilir2 take turn utk tolong timbus liang lahad mak..until itz done.. Then tok imam bce talkin..ptngahn talkin,org mule azan zohor lak.. Sumenye setel kul 1.15pm gtu n we headed back home.. Bubu stay with us til abs tahlil knduri arwah (8.++pm).. Anne nk ucapkn trime kasih cgt2 kt abg cz cnggup amik cuti n tolong anne sekeluarga uruskn mak..itz more than enuf..thank u so much..=') Abg cndiri pn ckp yg ibu abg suro abg dtg uma anne..(xpnh jgke cmtu..tharu..) Thanx to ur mum too.. Thanx for considering n concerning.. Pkck mkck yg lain sume btolak alek uma masing2 aftr sume setel..kul 10pm..sume da alek da..tggl Anne..Ibu..Adik n Abah..d atmosphere was so different.. Ape yg blaku arini...rce cam mimpi je..mcm x sgke... 10years ago..lost my late granny yg mnjge anne dr kcik till im 11 yrs old..arwh tok prgi tgglkn anne n mak..now mak lak ikut lgkh atok..n im 21 yrs old.. Due2 yg mnjge..yg anne tido skatil tiap mlm...da xde da.. Bru cmlm dpt gurau2 ngn mak...cuap mak mkn..hppy je mak time kiteorg nk balik kul 7pm tu..tp awl2 pagi ag mak bg 'surprise' kt kiteorg lak ea?? Mm.. Mak la yg paling byk bleter..nk cari gado ngn org ttbe...wat lawak merapu..even nga kt CCU pn pndai nk ajk gurau...but now..mak da tgglkn ain gak.. Tgk kuih rye yg kite wt cme2 pn ain xlalu nk mkn..tp ain cke tgk org lain mkn kuih kite..our laz kuih rye together.. Mak kate nk wat kek lapis cme2...tp nmpknye xcmpt.. Even mak bukanla mak kandung (cbnrnye maklong,ibu pnye kakak)...tp mak la yg ain paling byk abskn mce bbnding ibu cz ibu kje.. Nak gado2 ke..nk majok ke..nk gelak2 ke..ngn mak.. Org knal ain sbg ank mak.. U r my unty.. u r my mom too.. Hmm...it is sad.. But i know that life must go on.. Ain cyg mak cgt2...tenanglah mak di sne.. Al-Fatihah....<3