*Flashback*
13July2002- I was an 11 years old gurl..a typical ordinary school gurl.. I was so excited..cz skola ade wt rombongan g Kluang..Batu Pahat.. Pagi tu..arwah tok byk lak mulutnye..asyik tnye anne da abs packing brg ke belum..jgn lupe bwk ni..jgn lupe bwk tu.. Jgn wt cmni..jgn wt cmtu... Wat cmni...wat cmtu.. Haish~agk serabut gak rce bile kne push ngn soaln btubi-tubi.. But tu la bebelan trakhir yg anne dgr dr atok..
Rombongn skola..was fun..cam biace la..bwk dak2 skola rendah g tmpt tembikar la..water theme park..n wut so ever..x bpe nk ingt.. Time tu..ingt ag..nga zaman pcintaan ckgu Aila n ckgu Zaidi..hehe..ckrg da anak 2-3org lau xclap..hikhik.. Tahniah la ckgu..kami jd saksi zaman 'dlm hati ade taman' ckgu..hehe... Hmm... Cpnjg rombongan..rce seronok..but at d same time rce x cdap hati.. So...everything weren't fully enjoyed..
Mm...rcenye time tu da nk dkat mgrb kot mce cmpi kt skul..6lbh ptg gtu agknye.. Waiting for my parenz to fetch me.. Tp tggu2 xde lak nmpk batang idung kete..=_= Then muncul ckgu zambri..(mak pggil ckgu lentik..cz rmbut ckgu ni mce mude2 dlu pnjang n lentik..hikhik..)... Urm...ckgu ckp ''abah x dtg ag ke? Meh..parenz awk call td..mintak ckgu antakan alek uma..'' So...anne pn ikut la ckgu tu..tnpe fkir pape pn.. Hppy je cz nk alek uma n nk tnjuk souvenir kt atok..^_^
All the way home..ckgu tu tnye atok pe khbr..cmne keadaan atok aftr kuar hspital.. Ok ke x cmlm n pagi td.... Anne jwb la one by one.. Mmg atok was juz fine aftr kuar hspital tu.. Juz dat she's not able to walk.. Jd tido ngn atok kt hall..(Mmg tiap malam tido ngn atok..can be said..ag rapat ngn atok dr ngn ibu cndiri... Mak lak..hmm..mak ni kirenye mak long la..tp kiteorg duk serumah.. Me..atok n mak.. Ibu,abah n adik uma yg lain..hm..^_~ everything was juz great n peace..)
Cmpi kt dpn uma...d feeling im heving at dat time was so strange n weird.. Rmai tul org kt uma.. N eventhough terang..tp nmpk sorrow..
Time mcuk uma tu..even xtau jenazah cpe yg terbaring kt tgh2 hall tu..tp awl2 da dpt rce.. ''This is not gud..'' Then mcuk pntu tu ibu pimpin..bukk kain yg ttup kaki jenazah...then tgn...(da sebak da time ni).. Lazly muke..thatz when i finally broke down to tears.. Mlmtu tido kt cblh atok(jenazah) utk kali terakhir..
14 July 2002- Pagi tu kebumi jenazah.. N mlmnye kenduri lak.. Since then,agk2 ade la lam sminggu due..tiap2 kali angun pagi msti ngs..n ley kate tiap pagi gak bile angun tido..ade darah kering kt pipi..(hdung bdarah time tido).. N rcenye agk sensitive kot time tu.. Soon..mule adapt ngn pmergian arwah..
Now...im 20... How i wish u were here to see me..see me changing to a lady..(not a lil gurl NEmore)..wana tell u all my stories that i'm not going to share wit ibu or mak..cz deorg xkn faham pe yg ayang nk cam atok faham ayang.. Pggilan ''AYANG''......... Mm..ayang rndu tok pggl cmtu.. Atok xpnh pn pggil ayang ngn nme..unless atok start marah..hee~^_^cowy2.. Zaman mude2 dlu..kih3.. Mm..since atok g.. Everything changed.. Dlu..tiap mlm lau tido..ayang tido kt lengan atok..bantal yg ade jd bntal pluk je..(bantal bcuk..ngee~).. Dlu..tiap mlm ade je cerite2 ngn atok...berangan bile ade lesen nk bwk tok jln2..tp x cmpt.. Ckrg ayang da de lesen da..tp..kete xde..T_Thuu... Lau dlu...majok je msti g kt atok.. Ckrg lau majok je..mnyendiri mogok.. Hehe.. Cbb dlu clalu tido lam plukkan atok..jd cmpi ckrg bile tido kt katil lapang,rce cam insecure.. Jd..clagi ade bantal..teddybear..buku n notes kuliah(lau kt U)..sume longgok kt katil..half bed tu pnuh ngn dat stuff..half ag utk tido.. bile camtu..bru rce cam cosy...safe..n x tersentak time tido.. I'm able to get myself into U atok..u see..ayang atok da tue la ckrg..hikhik..^_~ Mm..even xpat jd doctor.. Xde rezeki nk wt medik.. Hnye wt mne mampu.. Wil try my best.. Pesan2 tok..ayang xkan lupe.. Hadirla lam mmpi ayang ag..tiap mlm ag bgus..(even aftr cdar dr mmpi cn4m ngs..gembeng tul..=_= hee~..) Ayang btul2 rindukn atok.. Mm..even atok xde ngn ayang ag..u'll always b in my heart..now..always..forever... Al-Fatihah..
p/s:lmbt update cz xde mood..hehe..^_^
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