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Itz 15th of February.. 13bulan pkenalan..11bulan di'cop' bakal jd wife org.. Da 11bln...tp rce cam bru je..how i miss all those memories.. 143367.. Mm..after all those things...it hppns to be different than usual nite.. Laz nite.. Someone that very close to me told me that i cant kept suppressing my feelings cz afraid that it will turns out to be a bigger fight. I tried to say those words..but i juz cant.. So..sent him a mcg telling wut do i feel.. Now he knew.. Hmm.. we'll make it up...soon.. S it for now..im not in d mood for any calls.. Por mi querido..lo siento...
Tough nite im heving.. Hard to get some sleep.. Pnyakit 'teman tp mesre' mule mnyerang..tp xla mnyakitkn cgt..juz makes me feel uncomfortable.. Bile da ttido...datang pulak mmpi.. Nta jmpe ngn setan/jin mne nta... In that dream..ade sorg budak ni..anne xingt cpe dak tu..nk kate my adik..mcm bkn.. N there's another gurl of my age that accompanying me..i juz cant remember who.. But who cares...the main character kt cni,budak tu.. Somehow..dak tu cam kne rasuk..tp x aggresive lgsg.. Bile anne tgk dak tu pnye cuare,duduk n cnyum lain mcm je..ngn mate die tertutup rapat.. I knew that 'sumting' is in there..in that kid's body.. So..anne cube branikn diri mndekati bdk tu n mulekn pbualan..
Me: Assalamualaikum..
That thing: Waalaikumsalam..
Me: Hmm..nape kau masuk lam budak ni?? Npe kau kacau? Ape tujuan kau??
That thing: Bukan budak ni yg aku mahukan..tp kau!
Me: (mule pelik n tkut ckit).. Ape mkcd kau??nape ngn aku??
That thing: Kau yg aku mahukan..bukn budak ni..tp disbbkn aku xdpt nk masuk kt kau..aku gunekan budak ni.. Kau da tau skrg ape tujuan aku bukan??
Me: (tercengang..terpinge2..)
Terus anne tjage dr mmpi.. Ttbe mule rce cuak..cgale ayat yg anne nk bce mule tunggang langgang.. Ncb baik ade M-ber my cat kt ujung kaki.. Terus anne peluk M..n xtakut ag.. Pstu anne ttido cmule.. Angun2 da kul 6am..adik nk g skul.. Anne cmbung tido cz nga 'cuti'.. 10.30am bru cdar cmule.. Aftr setel mndi sume..mak mule bebel yg abah tipu ibu tntg duit brg yg disita tu..(it hppn laz nite..mce anne da lari mcuk bilik)..mak kate abh gtau ibu juz rm72 je..ckup buln t bru byr.. Ibu pulak mati2 pcaye cmpi mule nk mara mak.. Nape la jantan tu cke cgt nk pbodohkan ibu??rm72x14=rm1008... Lau nk tggu cmpi ckup bulan..mne nk cekau ag rm1k tu?? Gosh~ I'll tell ibu d truth about d amount tonite then..juz wait..  Kul 11.30am bru pas cdai bju..ttbe dpt mcg dr junior..tnye rsult anne cmne.. Yea..anne tau rsult tu kuar kul 10am..tp mls nk bkk that time jugak.. So..11.45am ngadap komputer..gpa yg ag ckit nk dpt 3..ckup mngecewekn..kecewe cz nnt jd bahan durjana(abah).. Tp stil..alhamdulillah cgpa above 3..even hmpir ckup mkn.. rezeki jugak tu.. Tetap bsyukur cz i noe that i hev done my best for it..selebihnye bgantung pd tkdr n rezeki yg Allah nk bg..kdg2 dikurgkn bahagian cni utk dilebihkn di bahagian sane.. 12pm...anne mule btarung ngn cket yg mule watkn anne rce cam nk pengsan cz cket cgt.. Bertahan cmpi 3.30pm.. Tp cketnye makin kuat pulak..jd anne mcuk bilik..jd ley ngs cmbil tahan cket.. Kalau diberi skala 5,cket tu yg ke 4.5.. Mnahan cket cam urat nk putus dr pinggang ke kaki..cmpikn muntah 2x.. Itz 4.10pm..n finally anne x ingt pape da.. cdar2 kul 5.30pm.. Ok wow..cgt cket..1 bdn rce cam bru pas kne hempas..~_~ermm~
X lme pstu ibu alek..tnjuk ibu result tu..feeling like wana cry..tp xjadi..cz ibu xmara lgsg.. Tp bapak tiri prcn bgus tu,mmg xkn pnh nk puas ht..bile part my adik(anak die) dpt low pn,he doesn't care..ley lak bg kate cmngt ''nnt ley cube ag''..tp lau anne??all d bad things la kn..pnat da nk dgr..u n ur words can go to hell...die cndiri nta pape..hdup mngalahkn parasite..ag nk bahan org..dsr xreti malu..cz all he knows...people will clean up all d shits that he made.. U'r so not going to hev any cents of my ypj..ever!! Told ibu bout barang yg disita tu..n bile org tu nk abah jmpe ngn pihak deorg...i was in mak's bedroom.. Then ibu went out..nta ape ibu ckp ngn abah..ttbe abah ley jenguk kt pintu n mule tnye ngn nada mara n xpuas ht ''bile org tu call??org tu ade call??'' Pehal lak org tue ni ttbe ckp sal call? Tau pn gelabah bile kiteorg gtau ibu mnde yg btul.. tu la muke org bsalah yg nk cover salah cndiri.. hmm..org tu xcall pn..tp deorg gtau cmlm yg abah ptut jmpe lau ley esk(arini la) so that ley kurgkn ckit harge brg yg disita tu lau dpt lgsaikn utang yg blambak tu.. Da gtau abah da cmlm..tp arini xjugak die g jmpe.. Ye la...org cm die xkn pduli pape..wat salah pn xkn rce malu..cz die tau mne nk korek duit..''aku suami..aku ketue kluarge..'lubuk mas'(bini aku) kan ade..'' mgkin ayat2 ni ade lam pale die kot.. Dasar cngal lau die fkir gtu..ptutnye die yg kne bg duit kt isteri..ni x..isteri support suami..=_= mgkin lau anne da kje nnt....akn jd kes anak support bapak... eh2..silap.. anak tiri support bapak tiri.. Haaa.. *pfft~
Nta ape la ncb... Moge KAU permudahkan urusan keluargaku..
Mm...cketnye hnye Allah yg tau..anne rce lmah.. Kalau la arini da mule kuliah..mgkin anne xkn g kuliah pn..sumpah xlarat..nk diri pn cam si bongkok..urmm.. Esk hari laz utk kuar cari brg..17feb nk btolak ke ganu da... Im not ready for that..=/
Npe rce cket cgt kali ni pn i dunno y..nk diri pn xley..T_T Mm.. Xpe..ctiap rce cket yg dialami n kite redha,doce akn digugurkn n digantikn ngn pahale..*bersyukur bile sakit*..